Its In his Kiss
I've been listening to a ot of music lately (because I have nothing better to do) and I hear all these lines that got me thining about all sorts of things... Its funny how some things remind you of all sorts of things.
I went cruising with a friend one day and we had nothing to do. So we just drove. And during that time, alll sorts of different songs came out, and only a few I can remember. Here are some: " Dont ya" form the pussy cat dolls, " Let me love you" from Mario, and " Keep them seperated" from the offspring. Now eveytime I listen to these songs, it reminds me of this certain some one. In many ways, alot of those memories I dont want, but then there are the other ones that come into mind when I think of this person. The good ones are the ones you run home and call y our best friend about... Just recently I found myself looking for songs from the offspeing (whom I dont even like) just to remember things.. I think thats why, I'm not really sure.
You know what its like to see some one for the first time and something inside you sends these signals out. Its like you know that this person is gonna make a difference in your life one way or another... Its kinda like that with this person. The first time I saw this person walk into class with his baggy jeans and curly hair, I thought... I know this person, when In fact that was the first time I ever saw him before in my life. Through the year we talked a bit. Then a few years later, after he graduated, I ran into him again. I took his e-mail address and there started a new friendship.. About a month later we went cruising for the first time together. I remember I was so unbeleivable nervous. I tried to keep my mind occupied so it wouldnt show but some how he knew. Its funny cause the first time he kissed me my insides went nuts. I had this big smile on my face. I onle remember this because when he kissed me, for that split second, the world stopped. then I opened my eyes and saw that we were driving off the road. But it was weird.. The second time we went cruising things got a little hectic... After that we didnt see each other and all this drama went on. Things were said that I wish I didnt hear and some of the things I remember in complete accurate phrases.. Like this " It was 2 dates, if they can even be called that" Hows that for closure!!! Later we e-mailed each other and got back on good terms.. and thats that... Sometmes I stare off into space and find myself thinking about him, and often laugh. But sometimes I hear all these words and phrases and get upset... Lately this person has found his way inside my head and it bugs me cause I dunno why I've been thinking about him. But oh well. What can you do...
A few months ago I kissed my "best friend". It was funny. I guess we both knew it was gonna happen eventually, but it still took me by surprise. Once again music comes into play.. A while before we did anything, he sang a song to me. Its by finch. And everytime I hear Finch, I think of this person.. Well he came to my house one day to help him work on his English essay and we ended up making out. I liked this guy for a while before anything had happened. I think aferwards was a shock because it was like..." Oh SHit. I just made out with him" Our friendship didnt change after that. Untill the second time came around a week later. Funny how this works out becuase the cruising friend was also a week apart. Wow that sucks.. Anyways. The music that played in the background was The Used and then Shinedown. So now those bands also remind me of something..
There is a phrase in a song that says " Now I just spend all my time with nyone who makes me feel the way he does." And I then started thnking about these two people and my current love. And it seems that all 3 of them are similar...very similar. And it makes me think. Is this the case or not? I'm not really sure. I cared/care deeply for all 3 of them. All 3 senerios are different and different problems are present in each. I'm not really sure if I am over thinking this or not. All 3 start with the letter A, all are smart asses, have a way with words, and kinda look alike. But not really. Light compected with dark hair and glasses.. All of them.
I dunno why but the cruising guy sticks out in my mind right now... He has been in my head for about a week or so and I cant seem to get him out. I love my current A, but the first one is there lingering. What does this mean??? Anyone!!