it might be hurting you, but its killing me...

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so yesterday, i went with claire to safeway, and we get some food. then we walk back to ahs, and help decorate for the dance and watch some of the freshman basketball game. we lost. duh. then jacob comes, and we go back to safeway because im craving some starbucks. then we find laura, and chill with her for a while. then everything gets too confusing, and i go to lauras house with her. and we have a really deep emotional talk about everything. and that made me feel so much better. then we order some pizza! and afterwards, will takes us for some baskin robbins, and hes driving crazily! and i get the biggest rush of adrenaline because im so scared for my life. because whenever im in the car with him, he drives like that for me. so im freaking out, my heart is pounding, i cant hear anything but the blasting music and screeching tires, and im thinking 'this is 10x better than being high'. and i get so happy! because this rush is flowing through me like mad. and im freezing, but jacobs sweatshirt keeps me warm. then we go home, and we watch law and order! heck yes! and then will takes me home. but i forgot my backpack in his car, so theyre bringing it by later. so last night started to suck, but it got sooo much better! but jacobs sweatshirt smells like him... and its making me sad... :-/ ill have to give it back as soon as possible or else i think i might cry...

im babysitting today!! that means $$$$! which i need desperately, considering xmas is coming up, and im broke. then tomorrow i think im going xmas shopping. anyone wanna come with me??