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4:26am..can't sleep, pounding headache, dont know what to do..yea i guess you can call this one of the worst days ever...I just wish i was home with my brother and my grandma.things are soo screwed up, I have never been so confused in my life. I have to be strong for my brother but it is so hard esspecially when he doesnt even know the truth..For everything me and my brother have been through he has always looked up to me, i was always the one telling him everything is gonna be ok but not this time, this time i just wanna run away from it all..i kno it's the wrong thing to do but I just cant deal with it..I have been to 3 funerals and never cried this much..huh why am i crying if i hate her soo much? Is it wrong to hate her? i mean she has never done anything for me or my brother..she tried to but she alwasy fucked it up as usual. I feel even worse for leaving my grandma to come to ohio..her husband dies, her grandaughter leaves her, and now her daughter dies..i couldnt feel more guilty.I dont even know whats right any more.