facing reality
What happend to the days of road trips? eating at atlanta bread company? going to the mall to try on clothes you'll never buy with your best friend?
the days i wish i had back are all with people that i never seem to see anymore. my friends are few and far between, and im stuck here wondering why...why is it that new people i come across dont seem talkative, and old ones dont return my calls? did i do something in the past to piss everyone off? everyones so tied up in themselves or their new friends to miss the old. im here with only one person i can talk to...and theres only so much he will listen to. its just not the same when you ask him does this bracelet go well with your outfit...its not the same when i took him to atl bread com. its not the same when i ramble on about inside jokes that i had...is that what growing up is about? moving away from friends, becuase i thought it was the opposite. i thought it was having great times with the girls, drinking, dancing, smoking cigarettes just to look cool. riding down the road going nowhere, just listning to the radio and singing along as if we could. going to a friends house to discover that he has gay porn on him laptop and watching it with him. have i shunned away all the other great loves in my life just to make room for one? to me, growing up shouldnt be the memories you had as a kid to look back on...it should be having fun and making new ones. yet all ive seemed to do is move. and everytime its in the wrong direction. im going to hope that things will improve, because right now, thats all i can do.
to quote one of the most loved peole in my life-"Fate is something you have to believe in...not something you have to hope for."
fate is something that has always brought me to this person. it always happens. but fate needs to hurry up. because i dont know how much longer i can stand this.
the days i wish i had back are all with people that i never seem to see anymore. my friends are few and far between, and im stuck here wondering why...why is it that new people i come across dont seem talkative, and old ones dont return my calls? did i do something in the past to piss everyone off? everyones so tied up in themselves or their new friends to miss the old. im here with only one person i can talk to...and theres only so much he will listen to. its just not the same when you ask him does this bracelet go well with your outfit...its not the same when i took him to atl bread com. its not the same when i ramble on about inside jokes that i had...is that what growing up is about? moving away from friends, becuase i thought it was the opposite. i thought it was having great times with the girls, drinking, dancing, smoking cigarettes just to look cool. riding down the road going nowhere, just listning to the radio and singing along as if we could. going to a friends house to discover that he has gay porn on him laptop and watching it with him. have i shunned away all the other great loves in my life just to make room for one? to me, growing up shouldnt be the memories you had as a kid to look back on...it should be having fun and making new ones. yet all ive seemed to do is move. and everytime its in the wrong direction. im going to hope that things will improve, because right now, thats all i can do.
to quote one of the most loved peole in my life-"Fate is something you have to believe in...not something you have to hope for."
fate is something that has always brought me to this person. it always happens. but fate needs to hurry up. because i dont know how much longer i can stand this.