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Okay it is time for an offical update!
So i went home last week for frontier days, boy- was it lame. Like i mean i loved seeing family and the family of friends. But there were times, i was like this is cheyenne in its greatest, serving pancakes and putting on rodeos. Its so fucking traditional. So backwards. I saw people with legitmate mullets, and i haven't noticed a mullet in denver in eons. i'm not trying to say that denver is the zenith of current trends. but anyways. I felt like a yuppie, like hardcore, cause i wasn't dressed/acting like anything that i saw around me. And since when am i an actual yuppie? I still have about five years of making fun of them before i become one. Well if i become one........... They live all in cherry creek. anyways.
We got to liz's at about 9ish on tuesday nite and it was FUCKING freezing like we left denver and it was probably in the 70s but we get to cheyenne and its in the low 60s i was sooooooo cold! and i started complaining but liz kindly reminded me that i wasn't allowed to complain cause when its soo HOT i am like when it gets cold remind me that i like it. But i really think i like hot sometimes. anyways.. We went to tuskers and a had a beer. and came home. and then we got up and went to the breakfast. and that was fun. then i watched the thunderbirds. and then we ate alot. and then we went downtown and had long islands at sanfords then we walked around and then we went to ernie novembers and i bought two cd's (straylight run and rx bandits) then we to liz's house and ate her moms so yummy dinner. I mistook thyme for oregano. and it was funny!
i'm really bored of this... it happend i had a good time, i don't really want to go into details.
summary: I had fun, i drank and ate alot. Cheyenne is backwards. I am glad i didn't have to have too many awkward conversations with people i don't really want to talk to.
boys are stupid. I really want to find one that actually lives in denver, one that'll tell me funny stories, and that likes movies, how i like movies, and one thats cute, and appreciates me. but alas, no luck. So because this hasn't happened i get involved in stupid realtionships of convience with boys that live out of state. and i end up getting hurt more than i should. And its lame, and i really should stop but i comes down to one thing-
i am lonely.
But shouldn't I be too busy to notice that i'm lonely? why isn't it going away? and its not like i don't have ANY friends but its like i want someone that i can share things with entirely... i have an idealized fantasy of how i want my next relationship to be. and its overly romantic, and far from reality. but yet, its what i'm yearning for...
and yuck i'm done
So i went home last week for frontier days, boy- was it lame. Like i mean i loved seeing family and the family of friends. But there were times, i was like this is cheyenne in its greatest, serving pancakes and putting on rodeos. Its so fucking traditional. So backwards. I saw people with legitmate mullets, and i haven't noticed a mullet in denver in eons. i'm not trying to say that denver is the zenith of current trends. but anyways. I felt like a yuppie, like hardcore, cause i wasn't dressed/acting like anything that i saw around me. And since when am i an actual yuppie? I still have about five years of making fun of them before i become one. Well if i become one........... They live all in cherry creek. anyways.
We got to liz's at about 9ish on tuesday nite and it was FUCKING freezing like we left denver and it was probably in the 70s but we get to cheyenne and its in the low 60s i was sooooooo cold! and i started complaining but liz kindly reminded me that i wasn't allowed to complain cause when its soo HOT i am like when it gets cold remind me that i like it. But i really think i like hot sometimes. anyways.. We went to tuskers and a had a beer. and came home. and then we got up and went to the breakfast. and that was fun. then i watched the thunderbirds. and then we ate alot. and then we went downtown and had long islands at sanfords then we walked around and then we went to ernie novembers and i bought two cd's (straylight run and rx bandits) then we to liz's house and ate her moms so yummy dinner. I mistook thyme for oregano. and it was funny!
i'm really bored of this... it happend i had a good time, i don't really want to go into details.
summary: I had fun, i drank and ate alot. Cheyenne is backwards. I am glad i didn't have to have too many awkward conversations with people i don't really want to talk to.
boys are stupid. I really want to find one that actually lives in denver, one that'll tell me funny stories, and that likes movies, how i like movies, and one thats cute, and appreciates me. but alas, no luck. So because this hasn't happened i get involved in stupid realtionships of convience with boys that live out of state. and i end up getting hurt more than i should. And its lame, and i really should stop but i comes down to one thing-
i am lonely.
But shouldn't I be too busy to notice that i'm lonely? why isn't it going away? and its not like i don't have ANY friends but its like i want someone that i can share things with entirely... i have an idealized fantasy of how i want my next relationship to be. and its overly romantic, and far from reality. but yet, its what i'm yearning for...
and yuck i'm done