Bitchslap me now
One word can sum up today. Fuck. Two words can describe me. Fuck up.
I'm the one who had the baby at 19. Granted I'm still going to school, I wont finish until I'm 45...
I'm the one who takes a good opportunity and fucks it up for whatever reason is beyond me.
Mainly I'm a fuck up when it comes to other people. The father of my daughter cant even stand me, in fact I cant even fucking stand myself. Only reason I'm here is for my daughter.
Tonight something happened that I never thought would happen. Granted if this were 2002, not 2004 I would have jumped at the chance. (If you want specifics..ask) But seeing as though it's 2004, I have new priorities and needs. I thought I had these in one particular person, but I guess I didnt.... So the chance I passed up tonight, I probably shouldn't have, but I did because I just have these "gut feelings" that everything will work out for me for once. Bullshit.
Oh well, too late to turn back now.
I'm the one who had the baby at 19. Granted I'm still going to school, I wont finish until I'm 45...
I'm the one who takes a good opportunity and fucks it up for whatever reason is beyond me.
Mainly I'm a fuck up when it comes to other people. The father of my daughter cant even stand me, in fact I cant even fucking stand myself. Only reason I'm here is for my daughter.
Tonight something happened that I never thought would happen. Granted if this were 2002, not 2004 I would have jumped at the chance. (If you want specifics..ask) But seeing as though it's 2004, I have new priorities and needs. I thought I had these in one particular person, but I guess I didnt.... So the chance I passed up tonight, I probably shouldn't have, but I did because I just have these "gut feelings" that everything will work out for me for once. Bullshit.
Oh well, too late to turn back now.