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[absolutsara]

Before I was a Mom

I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to lullabies.

I didn't worry whether my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
I had never been puked on, pooped on,
Spit on, chewed on, peed on,
Or pinched by tiny fingers

I had complete control of my mind
My thoughts, my body, and my mind.
I slept all night.

I never held down a screaming child
So that doctors could do tests
Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small
Could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

I didn't know the feeling of having
my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it
could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a Mother and her child.

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
Every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love,
The heartache, the wonderfulment,
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.