another ending
I handed in my project today. Neatly bound and with a cd and everything. So ends my second degree. I've got that same slightly lost feeling that I had last year when I sat for my last exam, except that last year mr sexytime and mr laoganma were around to share the time with.
Time for more reflection. Has this year been what I'd hoped for? In one word, no. I tried to move from my rut. It didn't work. Did I do better academically? Yes. Slightly. Far from what I had aimed to achieve even though I worked, and how I worked this year. Doubt I'll forget in a hurry, 6, almost 7 weeks working day and night every single day. Throughout the year as well, not as hard but still working.
Apart from that, everything else that I wanted to achieve I have not. I've lost many friends this year, some permanently. And I'm further from the people I care about than before. When I think about it, I'm not even sure that I care about them anymore. I don't know that I have anything in me for them anymore. As for the other one... The last time I saw you, I wanted to tell you. Wanted so much to tell you. But I couldn't, and didn't.
My grandmother passed away this evening, after proclaiming her time was up what must have been 2 weeks ago now. Cancer of some sort, so it wasn't a surprise and neither were we close in any way. In some ways it's better for her this way and for everyone else not having to wonder when it would be.
I apparently have a job lined up next. Which is good in many ways. time to move on I suppose
Time for more reflection. Has this year been what I'd hoped for? In one word, no. I tried to move from my rut. It didn't work. Did I do better academically? Yes. Slightly. Far from what I had aimed to achieve even though I worked, and how I worked this year. Doubt I'll forget in a hurry, 6, almost 7 weeks working day and night every single day. Throughout the year as well, not as hard but still working.
Apart from that, everything else that I wanted to achieve I have not. I've lost many friends this year, some permanently. And I'm further from the people I care about than before. When I think about it, I'm not even sure that I care about them anymore. I don't know that I have anything in me for them anymore. As for the other one... The last time I saw you, I wanted to tell you. Wanted so much to tell you. But I couldn't, and didn't.
My grandmother passed away this evening, after proclaiming her time was up what must have been 2 weeks ago now. Cancer of some sort, so it wasn't a surprise and neither were we close in any way. In some ways it's better for her this way and for everyone else not having to wonder when it would be.
I apparently have a job lined up next. Which is good in many ways. time to move on I suppose