It has been months-- where have you been?

[absolutequeen]

Now, I have a new boy in my life and he takes up a lot of my time, in a good way. I love him, I know it sounds crazy but I do. I feel sad though because other parts of life are not going so well. The last entry I wrote was so hopeful about work, that hellhole. I thought that there would be space to move up but I do believe that a certain manager did not want me to move up so they said that I was not doing my duties up to par. Come on, I do my job better that they do theirs, I do a lot but since they don't seem to think so now I really am doing nothing. I'll show you Fu-k-s! So, now I am stuck... I feel like I'm stuck in life. I'm stuck at that job until I can find another one, I'm stuck at home because I don't have any money to move out. My parents want me to go back to school but I don't want to. I don't feel up to it, I don't think that I could get into a grad program and I think that I rather not try than be rejected.

I do think that they are kind of mad at me for not going but hello, I don't want to, at least not yet!