i'm really never that girl, help
How come guys just want to be my friend? and sometimes if they are horny they want to by my special friend but never give me a relationship or at least a date. I'm not a doll, or a sex toy. I'm a girl with feelings and I guess I'm not special enough for them to want more from me. I don't know why guys suck so much. Or maybe I'm the loser.
Relationship are not any much better though. Some people that I know have cheated on their other and these friends are "good people" so what does that have to say about relationships?
Recently, a friend was talking about a girl that he has an huge crush on. And the way he spoke about her was so nice, so crazy-nice. I was green with envy, not because I like my friend but because I have never been spoken about that way. He said that she was so beautiful, smart, and he just likes holding her. He told me, "she fucked me up, i don't know what to do".
When am I going to be that girl?
This entry is not to say that I'm depressed and lonely or anything suicidal like that. It is to say that sometimes some girls just get overlooked for some reason, and the reason isn't really clear or a good reason. No one ever comes along, even if I'm not looking. Friends try to mend the breaks by saying those things but they aren't true, no one ever does show up.
I know the reason that I'm overlooked, or I think I know what it is. Fuck. Screw all of this. I just want a drink now.
In other news---- school has started and I think it is going good. It's the home stretch and then I can retire from the school sence for awhile.