God?
Today was different by many accounts. It started off with the usual: early morning, church, my daily devotion...but then it got kinda wacky! I asked my step dad if he could explain what 'iniquity' meant in this chapter I was reading (it's somewhat interchangeable with 'sin') and from there we get into another one of our huge discussions about huge topics. But our topic turned into me talking about my status as a believer or non-believer.
Now, I've always labeled myself a non-believer but now I'm not so sure. I've been thinking more and more about it and ever since I first went to church when I was in grade 7, nearly 6 or 7 years ago, there has been a seed planted inside of me and it's been growing until this point where it's now a huge tree ready to burst and tear me open!
What got me and my step dad into this topic was a question I asked him. Now, lately, I've been having this reoccurring thought or statement in my mind: "If not now, when? And if not here, then where?" It's been following me around everywhere and anything I think about seems to trigger it. It's been creeping me out. So I asked my step dad and low and behold it's a scripture quote from the bible. Here I am quoting the bible and I have barely read and of it!!
The meaning's loud and clear to me. But it's a terrifying realization: God is finally beginning to exist for me.
Now I know some of your aren't religious and I don't want to offend any of you. You guys are my friends but I felt I had to blog about this because this is a huge thing for me and my life right now. <3
But besides all that I did homework, cleaned my room, and basically had a relaxing day before school again tomorrow. *lol*
Now, I've always labeled myself a non-believer but now I'm not so sure. I've been thinking more and more about it and ever since I first went to church when I was in grade 7, nearly 6 or 7 years ago, there has been a seed planted inside of me and it's been growing until this point where it's now a huge tree ready to burst and tear me open!
What got me and my step dad into this topic was a question I asked him. Now, lately, I've been having this reoccurring thought or statement in my mind: "If not now, when? And if not here, then where?" It's been following me around everywhere and anything I think about seems to trigger it. It's been creeping me out. So I asked my step dad and low and behold it's a scripture quote from the bible. Here I am quoting the bible and I have barely read and of it!!
The meaning's loud and clear to me. But it's a terrifying realization: God is finally beginning to exist for me.
Now I know some of your aren't religious and I don't want to offend any of you. You guys are my friends but I felt I had to blog about this because this is a huge thing for me and my life right now. <3
But besides all that I did homework, cleaned my room, and basically had a relaxing day before school again tomorrow. *lol*