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So ya, Adam and I broke up. Well I broke up with him, its all been adding up, and yesterda it finally set me off. Lately hes just been distant or kinda rough with me.. and all night last night I was trying to get him to talk to me, but he wouldnt move off my couch or even say a word to me. So at one point I threw my bottle at him and then got up and walked over to him and he was about to throw it back at me, and I tried to pull him up off the couch(which didnt work, i ripped his coat) and then he grabbed me and kind picked me up and threw/dropped me.. its hurt. Then I threw my ring at him and said fuck you we're broken up. Then I spent part of the night in the bathroom crying, then I took a bath, it made me feel at little bit better. And now I'm all paranoid that he fucked around with some girl last night, but why should I care, we're broken up. Like I called dereks like 5 mins after he told me he was going to sleep, and derek was like hes passed out. Then katey came in my room and told me adam got online then put his away message on, i just told her that if he got back on just have him call me. He ended up calling me around 3.... I dont know tho..

I have lots to do today. I have a dentist app. and I'm going shopping then prly to the tanning bed. Then adam wants to come over so we can talk i guess, not too sure if I want to talk to him let alone see him.

Well I'm very grateful that katey and tracey were here last night to kinda keep me in a decent mood. Well I need to go get in the shower.

LoveDanie