cold blows the drops of rain
yes i confess i haven't written in awhile so i will make up for it now. . .
i managed somehow to go to the mall today with mad in search of dresses for the dance. well we found everything but dresses. it was sad. i was listing all the things i would have bought if i had a cent of money. i'm already thinking about spending money that i don't have.
and yes the holidays are here. thanksgiving tomorrow and christmas around the corner. although thanksgiving isn't all that special to me i can still picture all the food (especially the sweet potatoe casserole!) that and gaining weight. but just the same HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!
the holidays will definatly be wierd this year. this will be the first year without pop. my mother definatly likes to remind me of that. we were out to dinner tonight for my dad's birthday and thats all she talked about. it brings me down. i felt like a baby for crying in the restraunt. i really hate crying in front of people. but i guess it was the part where she was going on about the two little girls at the table next to us loving on their grandfather that i realized how much i miss my pops. last weekend i went to freedom park. it was pretty. the pond their was lined by bags lite with candles as a rememberance for those that have passed away. me and emily found the one that read pops name. going there wasn't sad for me, it made me happy to think about all the memories. mainly ones from when i was a little girl in jekell island. in the mornings i would walk with him to get his paper and stop by the pin ball machines and use up every quarter he had. and then we would walk by the pool and dip our feet in. it was our little routine. it still makes me smile.
i hope everyone has a good break!
much love
-ela
song of the day: ween - cold blows the wind