venting
i think my lividness had worn down so that i can look at things in a more rational perspective and ok i was being a little too dramatic earlier. i was just caught up in the events of a really bad day. i take back what i said earlier i know i'm not a failure i just felt shitty because life at home has just sucked recenlty. its just because of my parents though, they drive me insane. i really feel like everything i do is so unappreciated. i'm so sick of my dad calling me a disapointment. i really think he should be thankful for the decisions i make. he's so ridiculous. to be honest i can't remember the last time we carried on a full conversation. my mom doesn't hear a word i say. and my dad doesn't talk. but i've known for quite awhile that there is no relationship there. its wierd because me and my sister have a pretty decent relationship. i just find it pathetic. but despite the family issues not wait just the parent issues everything is good. and i'm a pretty happy girl.
its just frustrating how a day with such potential could go so wrong. . .
oh well
tt ya'll lata
<33 ela
song of the day: maroon 5 - she will be loved