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everything has just been a blur since i graduated high school! i've pretty much been at the beach ever since. for the first time in my life things worked out really nice for me and a group of my friends rented a house at the same beach, the same week. needless to say i am so fucking glad it is summer. i have to say, i'm pretty happy right now. happy and rich with graduation money. money that will be going straight to the future apartment fund, because i have officially decided i am tired of living in my house with my parents and my little sister who tries to mother me for some reason i have yet to understand. i love them very much, but i don't love it when they search my car and my room consistantly. and also when my little sister lectures me and my friends, but i think she is slowly coming around...slowwwwly.
and tonight was pretty fucking random. i went along to a house warming party (not the kind where you give toasters and houshold items for gifts) with two of my best friends and a girl i haven't seen since i played soccer with her younger sister in middle school. i felt like everyone was ten years older than me. it was strange. at twenty five i don't picture myself smoking weed and partying with people who have jewelry tattooed to their bodies. ha
its kind of hard to tell how i feel right now. i am a little hesitant to jump into any new relationship, considering my past unsuccessful history. i am also hesitant because of the circumstances in which we met. people do stupid things when they are drunk so i'm trying not to be judgmental. its just my natural instinct to be so guarded and indecisive.
and tonight was pretty fucking random. i went along to a house warming party (not the kind where you give toasters and houshold items for gifts) with two of my best friends and a girl i haven't seen since i played soccer with her younger sister in middle school. i felt like everyone was ten years older than me. it was strange. at twenty five i don't picture myself smoking weed and partying with people who have jewelry tattooed to their bodies. ha
its kind of hard to tell how i feel right now. i am a little hesitant to jump into any new relationship, considering my past unsuccessful history. i am also hesitant because of the circumstances in which we met. people do stupid things when they are drunk so i'm trying not to be judgmental. its just my natural instinct to be so guarded and indecisive.