honestly
i don't get it. everything was fine earlier. i even got my nails done today, i might have overdrawn my account in the proccess but thats beside the point. i don't understand how i can have a decent day, but by the end of the night i'm a mess.
i know my biggest problem is that i keep most of my feelings to myself, especially when i'm upset or angry. i don't talk about it till after the fact, usually when its too late either that or i write it down somewhere just to keep from going insane.
most of the time i'm happy and laughing, more than likely laughing even when no one else finds it funny, but i don't care. i like it that way. but recently it hasn't been that way so much. most of the time everything seems ok, but then i have to go and breakdown and its not ok anymore. and i just end up feeling really stupid, like really stupid.
i know my biggest problem is that i keep most of my feelings to myself, especially when i'm upset or angry. i don't talk about it till after the fact, usually when its too late either that or i write it down somewhere just to keep from going insane.
most of the time i'm happy and laughing, more than likely laughing even when no one else finds it funny, but i don't care. i like it that way. but recently it hasn't been that way so much. most of the time everything seems ok, but then i have to go and breakdown and its not ok anymore. and i just end up feeling really stupid, like really stupid.