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Hello drug. I'm propped up on my forearms, elbows digging into your green and blue quilt. Your in the same position only foreward.. Our bodies fit perfectly together...Your waist pushing on my hip bones. I'm staring in your eyes and your staring back.. It's weird because I can see my reflection in your eyes.. Is that what you see? Or is that a flipped mirror image of the image of myself, upside-down- which i am seeing. I open my eyes wider to look deeper.. you pierce yours and ease closer.. I smile and relax-fade out. Fade out of this situation. Fade out on to my back and press the side of my face into your pillow.. press my gaze from you into that white mark on your wall.. press my gaze backwards out to the sky. It's so beautiful.. Everythings so beautiful. Your so beautiful. "What if your using me for love?" You ask so innocently. Everything seems so innocent. "Ha.. I know your not using me for sex." I laugh. Such a carefree laugh.. Such a carefree time.. Only I care so much? Remember that time I asked you for chapstick and you pulled the car over ran in a convenience store and came out with a stick before I had time to say anything? I loved that. Every day is like another hit that lasts through my recollections. I just got this weird feeling. If by the time you have registered the thought of something, it already has passed, than everything that occurs.. has already occured.. and therefore is a memory. Then what if things I thought had happened.. are just memories of memories i'm flipping through my mind. I bite my bottom lip anticipating reality. Reality=You.