Surrender
This song came on in the middle of this entry and well it just kinda fits with my mood as of late...Im soo messed up with what I want to do with my life right now...I have this job which I could easily do for the rest of my life but I may be screwing it up by trying to go to school at the same time...But I really dont want to drop school and not have anything to fall back on if the job for some reason isnt there anymore sometime in the future...blah my head hurts( If that was incoherent I apologize but I needed to get it off yet dont want to talk about it)
I have literally no time to myself these days it is either work or school and when Im not doing that Im screwing up by spending all my extra time with my girl and ignoring the homework I should be doing. Dont get me wrong I love being around her but I feel like Im letting myself down but not putting any effort into school. Im not saying Im a genius or anything but I really could be one of those dean students if I actually studied or put effort into my damn homework.
Apathy used to be my philosophy, I lost that somewhere and Im not sure how. Used to be that I didnt worry because I knew that worrying didnt get me anywhere anyway so why waste the energy, but now I worry and yet I dont do anything...
I'm waving the damn flag...can't anyone see it?
I have literally no time to myself these days it is either work or school and when Im not doing that Im screwing up by spending all my extra time with my girl and ignoring the homework I should be doing. Dont get me wrong I love being around her but I feel like Im letting myself down but not putting any effort into school. Im not saying Im a genius or anything but I really could be one of those dean students if I actually studied or put effort into my damn homework.
Apathy used to be my philosophy, I lost that somewhere and Im not sure how. Used to be that I didnt worry because I knew that worrying didnt get me anywhere anyway so why waste the energy, but now I worry and yet I dont do anything...
I'm waving the damn flag...can't anyone see it?