She F*ing Hates Me!
Funny...Keith always liked this song. Go figure.
I'm getting really sick and tired of being angry with him and trying not to hate him. It's physically making me sick... And the fact that he spent the night at his ex-girlfriend's who he supposedly never really cared for and blew me off because he was too tired to get together is making me sick as well. This is the girl he said he never really cared for...and me...the girl he said he cared a lot about and said that he would be here whenever I needed him...well I'm left alone feeling sick and he's watching TV at her apartment and sleeping on her couch. He's trying to be a good Christain by not being with me? Well doing what he's doing...turning his back on a friend who needs him isn't being a good Christain. If we're not really going to be friends....I need to know that...I need to know that so I can stop trying and so that I can have closure...because hanging on and caring is just exhausting and my heart can't take it. I hate him...... No....I don't....I just felt like saying it... I thought if I did then maybe I would start to believe it. I don't though.... I wish I did then I wouldn't want to have anything to do with him...and that would be my conclusion.
I just need an ending...one way or another.
I'm getting really sick and tired of being angry with him and trying not to hate him. It's physically making me sick... And the fact that he spent the night at his ex-girlfriend's who he supposedly never really cared for and blew me off because he was too tired to get together is making me sick as well. This is the girl he said he never really cared for...and me...the girl he said he cared a lot about and said that he would be here whenever I needed him...well I'm left alone feeling sick and he's watching TV at her apartment and sleeping on her couch. He's trying to be a good Christain by not being with me? Well doing what he's doing...turning his back on a friend who needs him isn't being a good Christain. If we're not really going to be friends....I need to know that...I need to know that so I can stop trying and so that I can have closure...because hanging on and caring is just exhausting and my heart can't take it. I hate him...... No....I don't....I just felt like saying it... I thought if I did then maybe I would start to believe it. I don't though.... I wish I did then I wouldn't want to have anything to do with him...and that would be my conclusion.
I just need an ending...one way or another.