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absinthe_eyed

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Nov 02, 2010 21:47

My apologies to anyone who either found themselves in my dream (or found me in theirs) or were inconvenienced by my disappearance.

In three days, I will have been here for two years.

[Police Force Filter]

I'll return to work tomorrow. Sorry for the unannounced absence.

[ooc: Short entry is short. ._. Justin took off soon after the Apocalypse ( Read more... )

anniversary, brevity is the soul of... brevity, maudlin, more mental by the day, not worth celebrating, sorry doesn't quite cut it, back

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private//unhackable makes_you_tick November 3 2010, 03:45:00 UTC

The anniversary of my arrival here is the one thing I don't keep track of. Everyone else seems to.

I was rather intolerable in my dream, so maybe I should apologize instead.

private//unhackable absinthe_eyed November 3 2010, 03:48:31 UTC

I can't help but keep track of it. Arrival date, death date, and the day I met someone important... those are the only three anniversaries I acknowledge.

You didn't kill me. I should be grateful for that.

If you need someone to talk to about murder-- ...I can't guarantee that I'll have anything useful to say, but I understand, to a degree, and I can listen.

private//unhackable makes_you_tick November 3 2010, 04:19:32 UTC

Arrival dates are important for a lot of people. I have two, since I left for several months here and then came back- perhaps that's why it holds less significance for me.

You let me know it was a curse. That let me know I needed to be careful, so I'm grateful for that as well. I managed to get through that day without adding to my list of victims, amazingly enough.

Thank you. It's not exactly an easy topic to tackle, I know. But I appreciate the offer.

private//unhackable absinthe_eyed November 3 2010, 05:11:57 UTC

Maybe.

You did? ...Good. Dreams--and nightmares--are less horrific once you become aware of the fact that you're dreaming, curse or no curse. If you truly have a compulsion to kill, however, acting it out in your dreams may help you retain control when you're awake. Not that it should be encouraged...

It's not, but it's worth tackling.

private//unhackable makes_you_tick November 3 2010, 17:39:09 UTC

I don't often dream, or remember dreaming, to tell you the truth. Since I can't manipulate my dreams, it probably doesn't matter. But I wonder if it would help with control...

I do have a compulsion- more to take things apart than anything else, and to try to put them back together better. Unfortunately, it tends to just leave me with broken parts, which is a major part of why I've stopped. I'm not going to claim to have a real conscience, but I'd rather not leave things worse than how I found them.

private//unhackable absinthe_eyed November 3 2010, 19:45:19 UTC

You own a watch shop, don't you?

private//unhackable makes_you_tick November 3 2010, 19:49:11 UTC

I do. Why do you ask?

private//unhackable absinthe_eyed November 3 2010, 19:54:45 UTC

Sorry. I'm trying to figure something out.

private//unhackable makes_you_tick November 3 2010, 20:16:28 UTC

No, it's all right. There is a connection. It's what I do to try and stave off the urge here. It worked for over a decade back home, after all.

I've been told that my emotional ties might not make it the best distraction, but it's been too difficult to give up.

private//unhackable absinthe_eyed November 4 2010, 00:28:58 UTC

You dissembled watches and put them back together to prevent yourself from doing the same to people? Does that relate to the ticking in your dream? I had assumed it was related to the City's clock, but clocks clearly have a different meaning for you.

What has been too difficult to give up?

private//unhackable makes_you_tick November 4 2010, 02:03:35 UTC

I became a watchmaker in the hopes that it would get my father to notice me. But it kept my mind occupied, and kept me in a routine.

Working as a watchmaker. My therapist advised me to try a different job, but I'm not sure what else would take all of my attention.

private//unhackable absinthe_eyed November 4 2010, 05:02:39 UTC

Does it keep you in a routine now?

If you want a job that will occupy you, you can always take on paperwork for the police. Just sending protocol-reminder memos to Dean Winchester is a full-time job.

[Joking? Possibly. Possibly not.]

private//unhackable makes_you_tick November 4 2010, 16:05:29 UTC

Somewhat. I still complete projects far too quickly, but that's why I'm always looking for other 'hobbies'.

I'm not sure paperwork would exactly be challenging, but- to be honest, I'd be willing to give anything a try once. I'm sure it's not something you all love doing.

But there's only one person who regularly breaks protocol, in this City? Really?

private//unhackable absinthe_eyed November 4 2010, 16:45:26 UTC

That shouldn't be difficult. Everyone always needs something here.

It's more monotonous than anything. And there are undoubtedly countless people who break protocol in the City, but the police force only has four repeat offenders.

private//unhackable makes_you_tick November 4 2010, 17:28:32 UTC

True. And enough time has passed that people aren't terrified of me. Most people, anyway. Faith doesn't even remember me

Lucky, considering how many worlds we have.

private//unhackable absinthe_eyed November 4 2010, 17:41:28 UTC

Do most people know what you've done? [This isn't accusatory, simply curious. One murderer (who, honestly, doesn't terrify people so much as disappoint them when they find out what he has done) to another.]

Unlucky. I've been trying to draft laws, but the significant differences in laws and concepts of justice between worlds makes any kind of agreeable, feasible justice system next to impossible.

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