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[absinthe_eyed]

My apologies to anyone who either found themselves in my dream (or found me in theirs) or were inconvenienced by my disappearance.

In three days, I will have been here for two years.

[Police Force Filter]

I'll return to work tomorrow.  Sorry for the unannounced absence.

[ooc: Short entry is short.  ._.  Justin took off soon after the Apocalypse

Comments

[had_not_lived]

I'm glad you're back.

[absinthe_eyed]

I'm sorry I left.

How are you?

[had_not_lived]

I'm... all right, really. I'm all right. How are you?

[absinthe_eyed]

Recovered from the curses?

To be honest, I've been better.

[had_not_lived]

More or less. I'm... I wanted to say, I'm sorry, about my dream. About all the things I said.

Because of the curses? Or...?

[absinthe_eyed]

Don't worry. You didn't say anything untrue.

...Various things.

[had_not_lived]

I said a lot of things I didn't mean.

[absinthe_eyed]

You must have meant it on some level. The subconscious seldom lies.

[had_not_lived]

Sometimes what you want to believe is more important than what you do believe. I said things I don't want to be true, whether or not they could be.

[absinthe_eyed]

That brings belief and truth into question. I never would have guessed that, subconsciously, you're a nihilist, but I also don't know if you truly are a nihilist. When you're awake, do you live by the things you want to believe, or by what you truly believe?

[had_not_lived]

I've told you the philosophies I live by. I try make the most of every day. The kinds of things I said in the dream... I think of them, sometimes, I wonder whether what I do makes any difference, but I don't let myself be swayed by that. Not as long as I can help it, at least. Does that make sense?

[absinthe_eyed]

It does, I think, even if it's... counterintuitive, in a way. I don't understand how you hold on to the philosophies you prefer when the darker ones you appear to have some belief in nag at you.

[had_not_lived]

Being happy is hard work. But it's much better than being unhappy.

[absinthe_eyed]

That's one of the most profound things you've ever said.

[had_not_lived]

Keep it in mind.