HEART OF MINE 1/3
HEART OF MINE
Pairings: AKame
Summary: Jin recollects his life and love.
Warning: Character Death
== JIN'S POV ==
I am wondering what I did in my past lives for me to merit so much misfortune in this life. No, not that much, I am after all the famous Akanishi Jin. Women and girls, and even a fair share of boys and men, all want a piece of me. But, the one person that I love I can never have, my best friend and my only love, Kamenashi Kazuya. Yes, sad as it is, I the great sex symbol, Akanishi Jin, is in love with a man. And, no I have never been in love with any man before, only with Kazuya. Women come and go in my life but only Kazuya remains constant.
We have known each other for more than half of our lives already. We went through so much together. I went through all the periods of awkwardness with him. No, I did not realize that I loved him more than a friend until it was too late. I always thought it was just a bond that exists beyond our friendship. But I know now, I loved him more than a friend. That I want to share forever with him, to grow old with him. I never even got to confess to him. Because with one fateful mistake, I lost him forever.
We were driving home after the shooting of the Christmas/New Year episode of Cartoon KAT-TUN. He asked me if I could drop him home because he did not bring his car that day and he did not want to take the train because he was dead-tired. Why not? I love him, didn't I? We were cruising along when I suddenly saw bright lights come out of nowhere and hit us squarely. The last thing that I remember before I lost consciousness was Kazuya crying, saying... "I LOVE YOU, JIN... I'M SORRY..." Then all went black.
I was in a coma for four weeks. When I came to he was already buried. When I heard the news, I just broke down and slipped into silence. I spoke to nobody for the next two weeks. Then one day, my mom came to see me.
"Jin, please do not mourn Kazuya's loss. I know how much you loved him even if you didn't know yourself. But know that Kazuya lives in you."
I did not know what she meant by that until three days later. Kazuya's mom came to visit me. She gave me two letters. One addressed specifically to me and another marked as "KAMENASHI KAZUYA: LIVING WILL".
"My son loved you dearly. I know that although he never made it known to anybody or you. He loved only you. He loved you for so long but he was afraid of losing you that why he settled for being your friend."
Pairings: AKame
Summary: Jin recollects his life and love.
Warning: Character Death
== JIN'S POV ==
I am wondering what I did in my past lives for me to merit so much misfortune in this life. No, not that much, I am after all the famous Akanishi Jin. Women and girls, and even a fair share of boys and men, all want a piece of me. But, the one person that I love I can never have, my best friend and my only love, Kamenashi Kazuya. Yes, sad as it is, I the great sex symbol, Akanishi Jin, is in love with a man. And, no I have never been in love with any man before, only with Kazuya. Women come and go in my life but only Kazuya remains constant.
We have known each other for more than half of our lives already. We went through so much together. I went through all the periods of awkwardness with him. No, I did not realize that I loved him more than a friend until it was too late. I always thought it was just a bond that exists beyond our friendship. But I know now, I loved him more than a friend. That I want to share forever with him, to grow old with him. I never even got to confess to him. Because with one fateful mistake, I lost him forever.
We were driving home after the shooting of the Christmas/New Year episode of Cartoon KAT-TUN. He asked me if I could drop him home because he did not bring his car that day and he did not want to take the train because he was dead-tired. Why not? I love him, didn't I? We were cruising along when I suddenly saw bright lights come out of nowhere and hit us squarely. The last thing that I remember before I lost consciousness was Kazuya crying, saying... "I LOVE YOU, JIN... I'M SORRY..." Then all went black.
I was in a coma for four weeks. When I came to he was already buried. When I heard the news, I just broke down and slipped into silence. I spoke to nobody for the next two weeks. Then one day, my mom came to see me.
"Jin, please do not mourn Kazuya's loss. I know how much you loved him even if you didn't know yourself. But know that Kazuya lives in you."
I did not know what she meant by that until three days later. Kazuya's mom came to visit me. She gave me two letters. One addressed specifically to me and another marked as "KAMENASHI KAZUYA: LIVING WILL".
"My son loved you dearly. I know that although he never made it known to anybody or you. He loved only you. He loved you for so long but he was afraid of losing you that why he settled for being your friend."