my update as promised
So it's been a week since my last real entry. Hey, it happens. And no one is writing in the paper journal, once again. Probably my fault. Whatever.
So I drove up to the cities to be with Michelle and she didn't have her baby. She got sent home from the hospital, but they told her it was coming soon. So I went up there and we had a good time and it was really nice to see her and spend time with her. She still hasn't her her baby, but I am free Sat afternoon-Sunday night so if it comes this weekend, I'm heading back up there. My only down point of the whole weekend was that Frank made me feel awful. I told him about Tasha wanting to date again and he went off about how dating was against God and how you aren't supposed to date. I disagree with him completely cause how else are you supposed to find the person you want to marry...? So he pulled out his bible and started pointing to scripture, and although I know that there are verses about courtships and stuff, I couldn't think of them and even though I think I raised good points, he shot them down and made me feel soo bad. I got so upset, not because I think he was right and that I felt bad for considering dating someone..but the fact that I felt like I wasn't good enough to be able to talk to him about it with my points good enough, or to be able to explain how I knew I was a Christian and ...ehhh....And then I talked with Michelle about our conversation and she told me that Frank is a huge perv whenever I'm not around and that he only talks about things that relate to his genitalia and that he has no way to talk to me that way because it's only when I'm around that he develops this holier than thou attitude. However, I've had really good conversations with Frank before and I think that he really is trying his best and although it makes me feel better, it doesn't help that I feel like crap for not being able to talk to him this time around. I don't think that I am better than him in any way..that is not the case. I have so many faults and I realize this. I need to improve my life greatly..but I don't think that gives him the right to make me feel like crap or to make me doubt that I am a Christian by telling me that I wasn't..Okay, I'm done on this topic before I get so worked up that I can't sleep.
So I had a good weekend with Michelle.
On the way home, I got pulled over for going 80 in a 70 and so tomorrow I'm mailing my $110 check to jackson county..yippee...
This week went by sooo fast. I missed Tues and Wednesday classes. Big suckfest. So then yesterday, I made a huge grid on my wall with a notecards..7x7 numbering 49 down to 1..That's how many classes I have left this school year. And everytime I go to class I get to rip down the notecard which is always satisfying and then I can get excited as less and less of them appear on the wall. I also put suckers behind all the classes that are at 7:45 in the morning, so if I make it to an early class, then I get a sucker..hehe...I figured it might be some incentive for others to go to class too, since I believe every single one except Lisa has been taking my suckers. Dangit, I don't even care if Kathy starts going to class as long as I get there. (Okay, I really don't want kathy going to class but I think that if someone else sees Kathy get up, then they would hopefully take over anyway). So I am going to try out this system and hope that this works.
Today I had a physical for Hope Haven and that was fun. My highlight of the the time was when I found out that I don't have diabetes. whew. And then I headed off to Hope Haven and I job shadowed for 2 hours illegally, because they asked me too and then realized later that my TB test hasn't come in yet and so it wasn't allowed. But it was a great time and I found out what I will be doing as an associate instructor and it sounds awesome. I think not only is it going to be a great experience for me but I am going to absolutely love it there. I already love the people I work under. So I got 3 hours in today. And then next week, I'm working 24. We have figured out until the summer, how to make it a smaller schedule so I don't overload myself. I will work 25 hours every other weekend, so 50 hours a month minimum because then I will also be on the on-call list with a note saying that I want hours so if anyone else wants to get rid of a shift, they can call me and I can take their hours too. So that will be my schedule until the summer and when summer starts, I'll pick up hours again and I can also join another department so that I can have hours with them, too. So that's exciting.
I guess that's it..instead of going into everything about Hope Haven, I'm sure I'll write as it comes along.
I am off to bed. I had stuff to write about Tasha and her flirting but I'm exhausted so screw that, maybe I'll write about it in the paper journal tomorrow and then hopefully she'll explain. Goodnight.
So I drove up to the cities to be with Michelle and she didn't have her baby. She got sent home from the hospital, but they told her it was coming soon. So I went up there and we had a good time and it was really nice to see her and spend time with her. She still hasn't her her baby, but I am free Sat afternoon-Sunday night so if it comes this weekend, I'm heading back up there. My only down point of the whole weekend was that Frank made me feel awful. I told him about Tasha wanting to date again and he went off about how dating was against God and how you aren't supposed to date. I disagree with him completely cause how else are you supposed to find the person you want to marry...? So he pulled out his bible and started pointing to scripture, and although I know that there are verses about courtships and stuff, I couldn't think of them and even though I think I raised good points, he shot them down and made me feel soo bad. I got so upset, not because I think he was right and that I felt bad for considering dating someone..but the fact that I felt like I wasn't good enough to be able to talk to him about it with my points good enough, or to be able to explain how I knew I was a Christian and ...ehhh....And then I talked with Michelle about our conversation and she told me that Frank is a huge perv whenever I'm not around and that he only talks about things that relate to his genitalia and that he has no way to talk to me that way because it's only when I'm around that he develops this holier than thou attitude. However, I've had really good conversations with Frank before and I think that he really is trying his best and although it makes me feel better, it doesn't help that I feel like crap for not being able to talk to him this time around. I don't think that I am better than him in any way..that is not the case. I have so many faults and I realize this. I need to improve my life greatly..but I don't think that gives him the right to make me feel like crap or to make me doubt that I am a Christian by telling me that I wasn't..Okay, I'm done on this topic before I get so worked up that I can't sleep.
So I had a good weekend with Michelle.
On the way home, I got pulled over for going 80 in a 70 and so tomorrow I'm mailing my $110 check to jackson county..yippee...
This week went by sooo fast. I missed Tues and Wednesday classes. Big suckfest. So then yesterday, I made a huge grid on my wall with a notecards..7x7 numbering 49 down to 1..That's how many classes I have left this school year. And everytime I go to class I get to rip down the notecard which is always satisfying and then I can get excited as less and less of them appear on the wall. I also put suckers behind all the classes that are at 7:45 in the morning, so if I make it to an early class, then I get a sucker..hehe...I figured it might be some incentive for others to go to class too, since I believe every single one except Lisa has been taking my suckers. Dangit, I don't even care if Kathy starts going to class as long as I get there. (Okay, I really don't want kathy going to class but I think that if someone else sees Kathy get up, then they would hopefully take over anyway). So I am going to try out this system and hope that this works.
Today I had a physical for Hope Haven and that was fun. My highlight of the the time was when I found out that I don't have diabetes. whew. And then I headed off to Hope Haven and I job shadowed for 2 hours illegally, because they asked me too and then realized later that my TB test hasn't come in yet and so it wasn't allowed. But it was a great time and I found out what I will be doing as an associate instructor and it sounds awesome. I think not only is it going to be a great experience for me but I am going to absolutely love it there. I already love the people I work under. So I got 3 hours in today. And then next week, I'm working 24. We have figured out until the summer, how to make it a smaller schedule so I don't overload myself. I will work 25 hours every other weekend, so 50 hours a month minimum because then I will also be on the on-call list with a note saying that I want hours so if anyone else wants to get rid of a shift, they can call me and I can take their hours too. So that will be my schedule until the summer and when summer starts, I'll pick up hours again and I can also join another department so that I can have hours with them, too. So that's exciting.
I guess that's it..instead of going into everything about Hope Haven, I'm sure I'll write as it comes along.
I am off to bed. I had stuff to write about Tasha and her flirting but I'm exhausted so screw that, maybe I'll write about it in the paper journal tomorrow and then hopefully she'll explain. Goodnight.