why does he hide them?
well let's see what has been happening...........well track is track and our meet got postponed til tomorrow because it is really stupid..and then we have our first home meet on thrusday...woop woop!
and ya now i'm crying because i just keep listening to this song....and i'm scared that some day i'm gonna get that letter in the mail that says my uncle isn't coming home from iraq...or that my dad gets sick because he is smoking again....does he just not care enough to quit. and why does he hide the cigarettes? just tell me to my face that you aren't scared of dying and thats why you are putting me through all this pain...and the only reason i cry is always your fault......just fucking say you don't care to my face.....and i won't cry at you funeral....i just can't deal with you anymore dad........you hurt me so much...............
so ya still crying but whatever...its not like he'll stop
but ya i went to mrs. riley's wake yesterday....it was so like come together like.....and it really made me feel close to so many people.....
today was her funeral and now i wish i went.......
R.I.P. 4/1/04
always tell people you love them.......
i love everyone that i have ever known
still crying......
abbey