Where do I begin
So many things are different now. It's not necessarily a bad thing. It's just a direction my life is taking and the overwhelming part is that if you would have asked me 3 months ago if this is where I would be in my life right now I'd lash out of you in a verbal assault of how you couldn't be more wrong. Let's begin.
Let's start from the last entry and work our way to present. Since this live journal has avoided my personal life I'll start there. I've been going out with Allison for over a month now. She's awesome. Some days I think she's the only thing I've got left. This is not the case. I still have plenty of great friends, and other new goals in my life to look forward. She's just constantly in the foreground for me to turn to. I miss my friends, I know they are always there for me, busy with their lives in the background of mine(much like I am to them) yet they always manage to emerge just when I need them. I love them all for it. Just know I miss you, let's chill soon. Without Allison, and my other friends supporting me through all of the latest events in my life, I'd be hopelessly lost.
Now the band story, everybody wants me to get to it. I know this. Time to dive in.
Anybody who reads my journal on a somewhat regular basis[with regular meaning as often as I find myself posting] knows that the band's falling out was not a random sudden occurrence. So here's the story. no bullshit.
Dan is a great guy, he's funny, always started laughs in the band. Despite our different life styles, I like dan. He's also a great drummer, once we have the songs done there's a lot of life and energy in them. This decision has nothing to do with us questioning his ability to play his instrument.
This has probably been slowly building up since our first summer tour. The accident. For a few reasons. 1) Ever since that accident Dan has been struggling to keep up with anything financially[this is not me blaming him, it's just the truth] For the love of the band we always picked up his slack as and understanding. But over the last year or so it just became too much, Now after our last tour Mike and I were suffering financially picking up his debt to the band. This was a big problem, especially because of reason 2 of the accident.
Reason 2.
Mike and Dan were in that car. Dan slept 15 hours that day. Got behind the driver's seat for 15 minutes, and flipped his car. Dan says he didn't fall asleep, mike says he did. It doesn't matter. Ever since then Tension has slowly built between Mike and Dan, Dan always throwing sarcastic remarks at mike over any issue. Mike just keeping an account in the back of his mind slowly getting more and more angry at Dan.
Now with Mike in debt because of Dan. Do you really expect mike to hide his tension and anger with Dan anymore? Dan shrugged off every mention of his money problems with sarcasm and "I can't give you money I don't have" This is true, but he can try harder to get it. Mike got 3 jobs to save his ass to pay off what he hadn't been paid. Why couldn't Dan? So with the hundreds he owed mike, and the $140 insurance he owed me it was a big problem[even though at first only mike and I seemed to think so]
I spoke to Dan, trying to come up with solutions, he didn't really listen to me then either, gave excuses about his schedule. So I asked about this meeting. Dan said maybe on a friday or weekend "depending on what shindigs are going down" To me that sounds like partying with his friends was more important than getting the band problem sorted out.
I said to Andrew and Ricky, I love Dan in this band, but his talent and Wit will only save him so much. Mike and I were discussing it, and we came to the conclusion that the best idea was to cut a bad investment. Dan was a bad investment, if an employee is losing your business money, you fire him. Then we've decided Broken Hero in general was a bad investment.
The band burnt a few too many bridges, Had problems letting go of the past musically, thus older songs were clashing with a new style. Leaving listeners of the EP not knowing what the hell we sound like and found it hard to like the band as a whole.
The answer: A new band, With the new style that we were taking as broken hero. All new songs, and a new name. We start from scratch and make it perfect.
Dan is angry with me because the end of his career in Broken Hero ended on aim. This was not my intention, he can hate me all he wants, but he imed me on line and the conversation lead to the question about the future of the band. I wasn't going to lie to him and then tell him in person or anything. so it ended right there. Was it low of me? maybe? But oh fucking well. I didn't know the sound of my voice would make the truth more soothing.
Now for the rebuilding. With the band officially over I have the time and the money to put my studio up. In the last month 90% of my bills are paid off and I can finally build. It's a wonderful feeling. Even with the knowledge that 3 years of my life had to be destroyed for the opportunity to arise. I loved Broken Hero with all my heart. I loved it enough to know that it's time was over. I will put all the dedication and love I had for Broken Hero in the new project, and it will sound a million times better. It'll be that much more insane, and your ears will never be the same.
I think that's enough for this insanely long live journal entry.
Let's start from the last entry and work our way to present. Since this live journal has avoided my personal life I'll start there. I've been going out with Allison for over a month now. She's awesome. Some days I think she's the only thing I've got left. This is not the case. I still have plenty of great friends, and other new goals in my life to look forward. She's just constantly in the foreground for me to turn to. I miss my friends, I know they are always there for me, busy with their lives in the background of mine(much like I am to them) yet they always manage to emerge just when I need them. I love them all for it. Just know I miss you, let's chill soon. Without Allison, and my other friends supporting me through all of the latest events in my life, I'd be hopelessly lost.
Now the band story, everybody wants me to get to it. I know this. Time to dive in.
Anybody who reads my journal on a somewhat regular basis[with regular meaning as often as I find myself posting] knows that the band's falling out was not a random sudden occurrence. So here's the story. no bullshit.
Dan is a great guy, he's funny, always started laughs in the band. Despite our different life styles, I like dan. He's also a great drummer, once we have the songs done there's a lot of life and energy in them. This decision has nothing to do with us questioning his ability to play his instrument.
This has probably been slowly building up since our first summer tour. The accident. For a few reasons. 1) Ever since that accident Dan has been struggling to keep up with anything financially[this is not me blaming him, it's just the truth] For the love of the band we always picked up his slack as and understanding. But over the last year or so it just became too much, Now after our last tour Mike and I were suffering financially picking up his debt to the band. This was a big problem, especially because of reason 2 of the accident.
Reason 2.
Mike and Dan were in that car. Dan slept 15 hours that day. Got behind the driver's seat for 15 minutes, and flipped his car. Dan says he didn't fall asleep, mike says he did. It doesn't matter. Ever since then Tension has slowly built between Mike and Dan, Dan always throwing sarcastic remarks at mike over any issue. Mike just keeping an account in the back of his mind slowly getting more and more angry at Dan.
Now with Mike in debt because of Dan. Do you really expect mike to hide his tension and anger with Dan anymore? Dan shrugged off every mention of his money problems with sarcasm and "I can't give you money I don't have" This is true, but he can try harder to get it. Mike got 3 jobs to save his ass to pay off what he hadn't been paid. Why couldn't Dan? So with the hundreds he owed mike, and the $140 insurance he owed me it was a big problem[even though at first only mike and I seemed to think so]
I spoke to Dan, trying to come up with solutions, he didn't really listen to me then either, gave excuses about his schedule. So I asked about this meeting. Dan said maybe on a friday or weekend "depending on what shindigs are going down" To me that sounds like partying with his friends was more important than getting the band problem sorted out.
I said to Andrew and Ricky, I love Dan in this band, but his talent and Wit will only save him so much. Mike and I were discussing it, and we came to the conclusion that the best idea was to cut a bad investment. Dan was a bad investment, if an employee is losing your business money, you fire him. Then we've decided Broken Hero in general was a bad investment.
The band burnt a few too many bridges, Had problems letting go of the past musically, thus older songs were clashing with a new style. Leaving listeners of the EP not knowing what the hell we sound like and found it hard to like the band as a whole.
The answer: A new band, With the new style that we were taking as broken hero. All new songs, and a new name. We start from scratch and make it perfect.
Dan is angry with me because the end of his career in Broken Hero ended on aim. This was not my intention, he can hate me all he wants, but he imed me on line and the conversation lead to the question about the future of the band. I wasn't going to lie to him and then tell him in person or anything. so it ended right there. Was it low of me? maybe? But oh fucking well. I didn't know the sound of my voice would make the truth more soothing.
Now for the rebuilding. With the band officially over I have the time and the money to put my studio up. In the last month 90% of my bills are paid off and I can finally build. It's a wonderful feeling. Even with the knowledge that 3 years of my life had to be destroyed for the opportunity to arise. I loved Broken Hero with all my heart. I loved it enough to know that it's time was over. I will put all the dedication and love I had for Broken Hero in the new project, and it will sound a million times better. It'll be that much more insane, and your ears will never be the same.
I think that's enough for this insanely long live journal entry.