and these days i wish i was six again..
i am so sick of everyone talking about everyone else. i thought we got over that when we graduated high school. if you have a problem with me come talk to me not 57 thousand other people until pretty soon everyone in the world knows all the drama in my life. i frekin hate it.
im really really really over working. i want to quit both my jobs and drop out of school and leave for good. someplace far away. where no one will ever find me because that would be the most wonderful thing that ever happend to life. im over everyone and their crap. dont involve me in your drama, dont pretend like i create drama for you, dont mention my name unless its to say something nice and even then i dont really know if i want anyone talking about me.
i love how my loan check got sent to my house even though all my other mail from usf gets sent to my apartment. i frekin hate this school.
i feel a nervous/emotional breakdown coming on soon. lets hope im not at work or at school when it happens. id rather just wait until im in the comfort of my own home so i can lay in my own bed and comfortm myself. not like anyone else cares if im upset anyways. they just say aw manders i hope you feel better. no you dont. you really dont care or you would do something to try and fix it. sigh. whatever i really dont care anymore. ive come to the realization that no matter how hard i try everyone always expects something more from me. and i dont have any more to give. every ounce of my energy is put towards something and i can feel that my whole body is completely drained of its energy..but still people are like well can you just help me out with this..well can you just do this for me. when will people learn to recognize a truely beyond stressed out, emotionally, physically, and mentally drained person? obviously never.
my life is too full.
sorry if i dont talk to anyone as much or write in here as much anymore but every second of my day is dedicated to something. i wish i had time to clean my house. i wish i had time to go food shopping. i wish i had time period.
i talked to my parents today and i commented to my dad that this full day internship thing was really gonna drain me and he said i should go to bed earlier. i love my dad but i dont think he understands how hard im trying. how can i go to bed any earlier than 1130 when i have to work till 10 on the day before i go to internship..and i still have to come home and shower and pack my things and make lunch and do homework? i dont have time. i dont have time to sleep. i try the best i can. 7 hours is golden when i can get it. goodbye social life, im much more concerned with sleeping more than 3 hours a night.
i gave myself a tension headache. wonderful.
what happened to the simple days of my life? every day i must remind myself..amanda your doing it to yourself so deal with it or get over it. so thats my rant. now im sucking it up.
live is wonderful. life is great.
im really really really over working. i want to quit both my jobs and drop out of school and leave for good. someplace far away. where no one will ever find me because that would be the most wonderful thing that ever happend to life. im over everyone and their crap. dont involve me in your drama, dont pretend like i create drama for you, dont mention my name unless its to say something nice and even then i dont really know if i want anyone talking about me.
i love how my loan check got sent to my house even though all my other mail from usf gets sent to my apartment. i frekin hate this school.
i feel a nervous/emotional breakdown coming on soon. lets hope im not at work or at school when it happens. id rather just wait until im in the comfort of my own home so i can lay in my own bed and comfortm myself. not like anyone else cares if im upset anyways. they just say aw manders i hope you feel better. no you dont. you really dont care or you would do something to try and fix it. sigh. whatever i really dont care anymore. ive come to the realization that no matter how hard i try everyone always expects something more from me. and i dont have any more to give. every ounce of my energy is put towards something and i can feel that my whole body is completely drained of its energy..but still people are like well can you just help me out with this..well can you just do this for me. when will people learn to recognize a truely beyond stressed out, emotionally, physically, and mentally drained person? obviously never.
my life is too full.
sorry if i dont talk to anyone as much or write in here as much anymore but every second of my day is dedicated to something. i wish i had time to clean my house. i wish i had time to go food shopping. i wish i had time period.
i talked to my parents today and i commented to my dad that this full day internship thing was really gonna drain me and he said i should go to bed earlier. i love my dad but i dont think he understands how hard im trying. how can i go to bed any earlier than 1130 when i have to work till 10 on the day before i go to internship..and i still have to come home and shower and pack my things and make lunch and do homework? i dont have time. i dont have time to sleep. i try the best i can. 7 hours is golden when i can get it. goodbye social life, im much more concerned with sleeping more than 3 hours a night.
i gave myself a tension headache. wonderful.
what happened to the simple days of my life? every day i must remind myself..amanda your doing it to yourself so deal with it or get over it. so thats my rant. now im sucking it up.
live is wonderful. life is great.