"is this is place we used to love? is this the place ive been dreaming of?"
today i went to work with my mom, ran some errands with candace, then went out with laura and then i met up with chris and smoked with him.
it was a good day that quickly turned horrible.
my parents have officialy hired lawyers to try and figure out paying for college, and here i thought it was all set. the sick part is that each one of them has more then enough money to pay for it, theyre just being immature and trying to come up with reasons why the other one should pay more. they've been divorced 11 years..this is pathetic.
they promised me that they'd never involve lawyers after what happened last time, they promised.
i dont think anyone knows how much ofa big deal this is, none of you also know what happened when my parents got divorced, and what happened with the lawyers and all. and its also not something i feel comfortable talking about here, and i know i cant talk about it without losing it.
im so close to healing and i came this close to fucking up again. that was blunt, sorry. i just can't deal with this kind of stuff right now.
then tonight there was drama between my kids and i hate that. i hate even more that i got involved, and im still not sure how that happened. but im just sitting here hoping that i didnt step on any toes, and that i wont step on any toes.
this weekend i have an open house until monday night, call me if you want to hang out.
please excuse my over-sensitive state of my mind for the next X amount of time.
its times like these when i dont want to be a parent, because i never want to put someone through what they put me through.
im sick of being alone.
it was a good day that quickly turned horrible.
my parents have officialy hired lawyers to try and figure out paying for college, and here i thought it was all set. the sick part is that each one of them has more then enough money to pay for it, theyre just being immature and trying to come up with reasons why the other one should pay more. they've been divorced 11 years..this is pathetic.
they promised me that they'd never involve lawyers after what happened last time, they promised.
i dont think anyone knows how much ofa big deal this is, none of you also know what happened when my parents got divorced, and what happened with the lawyers and all. and its also not something i feel comfortable talking about here, and i know i cant talk about it without losing it.
im so close to healing and i came this close to fucking up again. that was blunt, sorry. i just can't deal with this kind of stuff right now.
then tonight there was drama between my kids and i hate that. i hate even more that i got involved, and im still not sure how that happened. but im just sitting here hoping that i didnt step on any toes, and that i wont step on any toes.
this weekend i have an open house until monday night, call me if you want to hang out.
please excuse my over-sensitive state of my mind for the next X amount of time.
its times like these when i dont want to be a parent, because i never want to put someone through what they put me through.
im sick of being alone.