"i wanna die in your arms tonight, baby i want this to last forever"
Friday, laura came over after school for a little bit, then lala and pat stopped by to drop me off a little treat, then mikey, me, allie and roise went to run some errands and drop off rosie and then we went back to my house. lots of random people friday night but then again when isnt there random people? so it was me, mikey, allie, ben, chris arey, krystle, staley, kinch, cody, steph, charles seabury, paul everett (i think), scott baldy, and lala for a little bit. eventually everyone left and around 2 me and mikey tried to pass out but that didnt work, eventually i do believe mikey fell asleep but i never did. i cleaned and i went to fisher and played on the swings and everything
Saturday, mikey left around 1 and then chris picked me up and i went to his house and did his sister's hair for her semi-formal. then we ran some errands and came back here with candace, and then eventually it expanded to include allie, kate, matt, steve, kinch, cody, krystle, jake, huckle, mikey, charlene, roy, and charles again. it was a weird night. im not quite sure what was wrong, it was a little bit of everything mixed with a bad roll and i just kinda... i dont know how to explain it. i just know i need to thank chris for knowing me as well as he does. eventually everyone left and i made mikey stay up and watch a movie with me.
...Thank you for staying with me Mikey, you may not realize it but you just being there for me saturday night made everything a million times better. you really impressed me and im very thankful to you for dealing with me, im sorry if i made you uncomfortable, then i went to pass out around 3 and i saw i had a bucnh of missed calls from lala so i talked to him...im sorry that i upset you lala, i didnt mean to make you worry or make you mad.
yesterday (Sunday) i woke up and cleaned, smoked with mikey, then chris picked us up around 1:30 and we drove mikey home and i went back to his house with him for his graduation party and i ended up sleeping over there
And now im sitting in journalism feeling kinda like a truck ran me over...but his party was awesome. and last night was the best night to stay there because im really trying to not be alone right now because thats when i do stupid things.
Chris, thank you. i cant even think of the words to describe how much i love you. you make me feel whole and i am so proud of you. i have loved for as long as i can remember and i will forever. im here for you always. we're meant to be. we seperated for a year and the fact that we found eachother again and are closer than ever proves something. i could write about you forever. i love you christopher, you will always be my other half, homosexual or not. lol ;) together forever my love, together forever.
Candace, you are amazing, you have more potential for greatness than anyone i know. i look up to you in so many ways, i love you with all my heart and i am always here for you. this year has been amazing and when i look back at the times we've had and the memories weve made i cant help but thank god that there are people like you in this world. please, never hesitate to ask me for anything no matter what it is. nothing you do could upset me. you are a beautiful person and i hate that you dont see that. There will ALWAYS be room for you in my dorm at SMC, always. i love you candace, ive never had a girlyfriend that i felt i could open up to like i can to you and that i trust with...everything.
Allie, your strength amazes me. i dont know anyone who can handle things the way you can. your talent at simply making people feel loved and comfortable is amazing to me. your unconditioned love for those around you and your desire to keep the relationships in your life in harmony is unimaginable. you have taught me a lot and i thank you for that. im always here for you my dear, for whatever you may need. even if its that girly talk you hate, but were oh so good at. ;) i love you allison, for everything you are, for teaching me your life experiences and for giving me that look that you do. the "please dont worry, i love you" look that just instantly can make things better. you must come visit me up north, i promise to show you a good time. i really dont want to lose you.
Mikey, you have the biggest heart out of anyone i know. your patience for people and your talent at giving people second chances is admirable. i dont think you realize at all how much your friendship means to me and how much you just being around helps me. you'll be great, you have more drive and aspirations then anyone i know and i cant wait to see how your life progresses. im always here for you, for whatever you may need, for advice or just to listen. thank you for all the things youve helped me with, im in forever debt to you. i truly love you michael, with all my heart. dont ever lose hope mike, thats what i love about you, the good you find in everyone and your faith in people is amazing, and i look up to you so much for that and i try to model myself after that. im scared to leave you, you must visit...
~im sorry if i freaked the four of you out saturday night. that was far from my intentions. and although i kinda hate that i just let you all know exactly what happened, ive never felt better about it because it makes me realize how much i trust you guys, and thats a big deal for me. i love you guys more then youll ever know and leaving you will be one of the hardest things i ever have to do. ill be here for you forever, i promise. there arent words to tell you how much i love you...and how much i need you.
Saturday, mikey left around 1 and then chris picked me up and i went to his house and did his sister's hair for her semi-formal. then we ran some errands and came back here with candace, and then eventually it expanded to include allie, kate, matt, steve, kinch, cody, krystle, jake, huckle, mikey, charlene, roy, and charles again. it was a weird night. im not quite sure what was wrong, it was a little bit of everything mixed with a bad roll and i just kinda... i dont know how to explain it. i just know i need to thank chris for knowing me as well as he does. eventually everyone left and i made mikey stay up and watch a movie with me.
...Thank you for staying with me Mikey, you may not realize it but you just being there for me saturday night made everything a million times better. you really impressed me and im very thankful to you for dealing with me, im sorry if i made you uncomfortable, then i went to pass out around 3 and i saw i had a bucnh of missed calls from lala so i talked to him...im sorry that i upset you lala, i didnt mean to make you worry or make you mad.
yesterday (Sunday) i woke up and cleaned, smoked with mikey, then chris picked us up around 1:30 and we drove mikey home and i went back to his house with him for his graduation party and i ended up sleeping over there
And now im sitting in journalism feeling kinda like a truck ran me over...but his party was awesome. and last night was the best night to stay there because im really trying to not be alone right now because thats when i do stupid things.
Chris, thank you. i cant even think of the words to describe how much i love you. you make me feel whole and i am so proud of you. i have loved for as long as i can remember and i will forever. im here for you always. we're meant to be. we seperated for a year and the fact that we found eachother again and are closer than ever proves something. i could write about you forever. i love you christopher, you will always be my other half, homosexual or not. lol ;) together forever my love, together forever.
Candace, you are amazing, you have more potential for greatness than anyone i know. i look up to you in so many ways, i love you with all my heart and i am always here for you. this year has been amazing and when i look back at the times we've had and the memories weve made i cant help but thank god that there are people like you in this world. please, never hesitate to ask me for anything no matter what it is. nothing you do could upset me. you are a beautiful person and i hate that you dont see that. There will ALWAYS be room for you in my dorm at SMC, always. i love you candace, ive never had a girlyfriend that i felt i could open up to like i can to you and that i trust with...everything.
Allie, your strength amazes me. i dont know anyone who can handle things the way you can. your talent at simply making people feel loved and comfortable is amazing to me. your unconditioned love for those around you and your desire to keep the relationships in your life in harmony is unimaginable. you have taught me a lot and i thank you for that. im always here for you my dear, for whatever you may need. even if its that girly talk you hate, but were oh so good at. ;) i love you allison, for everything you are, for teaching me your life experiences and for giving me that look that you do. the "please dont worry, i love you" look that just instantly can make things better. you must come visit me up north, i promise to show you a good time. i really dont want to lose you.
Mikey, you have the biggest heart out of anyone i know. your patience for people and your talent at giving people second chances is admirable. i dont think you realize at all how much your friendship means to me and how much you just being around helps me. you'll be great, you have more drive and aspirations then anyone i know and i cant wait to see how your life progresses. im always here for you, for whatever you may need, for advice or just to listen. thank you for all the things youve helped me with, im in forever debt to you. i truly love you michael, with all my heart. dont ever lose hope mike, thats what i love about you, the good you find in everyone and your faith in people is amazing, and i look up to you so much for that and i try to model myself after that. im scared to leave you, you must visit...
~im sorry if i freaked the four of you out saturday night. that was far from my intentions. and although i kinda hate that i just let you all know exactly what happened, ive never felt better about it because it makes me realize how much i trust you guys, and thats a big deal for me. i love you guys more then youll ever know and leaving you will be one of the hardest things i ever have to do. ill be here for you forever, i promise. there arent words to tell you how much i love you...and how much i need you.