faith
there is a chip in my heart
that no one is allowed to see
and i've been star gazing and praying there
in my vulnerability,
and it's been 23 years dear, that i've sat alone out there
waiting for some company in the foggy morning air.
the sunrises are so beautiful on that ledge
that to speak of them would deteriorate the quality
of that vision, the surface would surely retract
and send me head first to the place where i lack the most.
a true revelation of the ghosts that walk with me:
they are more a part of me that any one will ever see
because in this abyss, on this ledge of no hope
i've found a stranger looking over my shoulder with a rope tied
'round my waist, in case i can't decide
if my heart is worth the wait.
and no one will ever see me there, perched softly in the night air
counting promises on one hand and hurling all the lies of my life
with the other, singing softly to a breeze that's blowing,
wondering if where it's going some one knowing may be waiting
showing sign that countless times have kept me baited
like a fish that could be thrown back in
but not in the same shape or life it was discovered in.
what's the point?
why share my despair with the countless souls out there
so filled with lies and selfishness that my distress
is repeated like a million shards of glass
in every one of them?
i am broken, and i've spent too long pretending
that the cuts and scrapes surrounding me
could possibly be mending
or that this heart of mine is possible of the kind of love
it deserves, only one Love is ever going to love it
for what it's worth.
and for what it's worth, i can't stop believing
that maybe without trying
i may once again start breathing
and believing and seeing and maybe even reaching
for another person's soul
who can help carry my own
but who am i kidding?
it's a good thing i have a good sense of humor
or i may have dissapeared completely.
ah, but this love in my heart can't be contained
and i was built to spill, not to be restrained
so i'll keep my head up and my heart open
and my faith in Him will guide me
when my heart is left for broken.
that no one is allowed to see
and i've been star gazing and praying there
in my vulnerability,
and it's been 23 years dear, that i've sat alone out there
waiting for some company in the foggy morning air.
the sunrises are so beautiful on that ledge
that to speak of them would deteriorate the quality
of that vision, the surface would surely retract
and send me head first to the place where i lack the most.
a true revelation of the ghosts that walk with me:
they are more a part of me that any one will ever see
because in this abyss, on this ledge of no hope
i've found a stranger looking over my shoulder with a rope tied
'round my waist, in case i can't decide
if my heart is worth the wait.
and no one will ever see me there, perched softly in the night air
counting promises on one hand and hurling all the lies of my life
with the other, singing softly to a breeze that's blowing,
wondering if where it's going some one knowing may be waiting
showing sign that countless times have kept me baited
like a fish that could be thrown back in
but not in the same shape or life it was discovered in.
what's the point?
why share my despair with the countless souls out there
so filled with lies and selfishness that my distress
is repeated like a million shards of glass
in every one of them?
i am broken, and i've spent too long pretending
that the cuts and scrapes surrounding me
could possibly be mending
or that this heart of mine is possible of the kind of love
it deserves, only one Love is ever going to love it
for what it's worth.
and for what it's worth, i can't stop believing
that maybe without trying
i may once again start breathing
and believing and seeing and maybe even reaching
for another person's soul
who can help carry my own
but who am i kidding?
it's a good thing i have a good sense of humor
or i may have dissapeared completely.
ah, but this love in my heart can't be contained
and i was built to spill, not to be restrained
so i'll keep my head up and my heart open
and my faith in Him will guide me
when my heart is left for broken.