The Big Picture
Sleeping on someones camping cot and eating their food isn't really my idea of "getting away from it all" but I have to admit it definately helped. Thanks tons Gereaus for having me, I probally would've been in the park otherwise. With so much going on sometimes the only thing you can do is look forward. Which would be a lot less unsettling if the future wasn't in a cloud.
Come July 21st I must be out of this house, finding somewhere to live, something to do. I still can't even decide where I want to go to school. See kids I was banned from Grand Valley and any other financial assistance from the parentals so now have to support my own college ambitions. Not to say what I did wasn't wrong. I take full responsibility for it. It seems to me my life always changes in those times I don't think. In those passive urges that make my spine bleed. So what's the answer. Rehab? Stability? New surroundings?
I feel as though each answer has its drawbacks and is only temporary. So then I ask what has to change? And inside I know it's me. If I could just make myself believe, the rest is easy..
Come July 21st I must be out of this house, finding somewhere to live, something to do. I still can't even decide where I want to go to school. See kids I was banned from Grand Valley and any other financial assistance from the parentals so now have to support my own college ambitions. Not to say what I did wasn't wrong. I take full responsibility for it. It seems to me my life always changes in those times I don't think. In those passive urges that make my spine bleed. So what's the answer. Rehab? Stability? New surroundings?
I feel as though each answer has its drawbacks and is only temporary. So then I ask what has to change? And inside I know it's me. If I could just make myself believe, the rest is easy..