fic: Variations on Want and Need

[abriata]

Variations on Want and Need
The Social Network
Mark/Eduardo, Chris/Dustin, OT4
NC17
8,000 words

Mark is a pretty simple person.
Warnings
Mild voyeurism. Mark is a creepy creep?
Notes
For my

Comments

[abriata]

I think we need to correct one of your sentences:

Mark-centric GANGBANGS are always for the win. Because, come on. Would anyone really turn down any gangbang porn? Be honest, here. :P

lolololol PROGRESSION IS IMPORTANT OKAYYYYY and hard :( and every step is an important one! Self-acceptance is key! It keeps you out of booze pits and rehab! (I...have actually no idea where this came from or where I was originally going with it, because I had to walk away in the middle when one of the kittens started...choking on its own tail? It swallowed the tip and...started choking? So MOVING ON.)

So yes, we understand each other very well :)

(I found you on tumblr by accident! Like, I wasn't even looking at any fandom-related tags or anything and you just popped up! At least, I really hope it was you? Because if not, there is some random person on tumblr using your picture of yourself and making long, detailed meta posts about TSN that coincide to yours. Pretty sure it was you. If not, you have an evil twin, and I don't want the blame for discovering her.

[abriata]

ALSO ALSO ALSO

(Yes I could edit my above comment; too lazy, stfu)

I was trying to write that stupid something that is looooooong and difficult and I have no more excuses to be avoiding (except re:OChem, but whatev) and OMG I HAVE DECIDED GROUP PORN IS SO MUCH EASIER.

OT4 is like the OTP for ADD people. Get bored? Switch characters! Every two paragraphs! And it is awesome.

But now it's like, "One POV? Check. Plot? ....check? Timeline? ... ... what? check! Two-character focus?"

"Two character focus?"

"Two-"

AND THEN THIS IS MY FACE: :\ :( >_>

[slasher48]

(SHIT HAPPENS. This morning at one I finished an essay and didn't move -- like, even change positions -- for seven hours. Laziness is sometimes unavoidable. XD)

IT KIND OF IS THOUGH. I mean, I knew next to nothing about the hockey players I used to write about, but I wrote like, a six-some. Orgy, whatever, yeah, and it went on for like ten pages. IT WORKS.

Lmfao. I'm actually the opposite, so we combine perfectly. I find it really difficult to write more than the two focal characters when I'm writing something really in-depth. Writing a foursome would be difficult, 'cause I'd just be sitting there like HOW DO YOU ANATOMY/HOW DO YOU CHARACTERIZATION simultaneously and probably give up. Yesterday I wrote something -- THAT I AM DYING TO SHOW YOU -- and Sean was in it, and I just kept changing his dialogue 'cause HOW DO YOU CHARACTERIZATION OTHER PEOPLE. IDK.

Either way, YOU HAVE SUCH A GOOD HANDLE ON THAT MARK AND EDUARDO (specifically -- but more like ALL Mark and Eduardo, and Chris, and Dustin, and Sean...should I go on? ;)) THAT YOU WILL BE JUST FUCKING FINE, I AM SURE OF IT. ♥

[abriata]

Don't parts of you start atrophying if you don't even change positions for seven hours? I'm just saying, no chair can be that foofy. (I still want one, so bad.)

Ahahahahahaha orgy omg really? I want to see iiiiiiiiiiiiiit. I have never read anything with more than five people in it before! This is a portion of my exposure that is obviously highly lacking; fix it.

And wait, what? Who said anything about IN DEPTH. I am talking about PORN. It like AN UNLIMITED SUPPLY OF DICKS. You need one someplace? One can always be found. :D

YOU CAN SHOW ME. I WILL BE ON SOONNNNNNNNNNNN. I AM TRYING :( Incidentally, I have things to show you, too! It's not that thing, it is various other things. Things that I am using to avoid that thing, because I have awesome, highly developed avoidance techniques. (But one, at least, I know is very much RTYI)

[slasher48]

I think that might be true, because when I stood up this morning, my body didn't even know what the fuck it was supposed to be doing, and I almost tripped face-first into my television (which would've been a tragedy; I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO WATCH THE FINCHER FILMS OR QUEER AS FOLK YET!).

And for the record, the chair IS that foofy. I didn't even HAVE to move. The chair was like "I got this, just stay here for hours, we're good".

No, no you don't. You really don't. There's like, no characterization. The hockey players are like, Bella from Twilight levels of nothingness. They have quirks and that's about it. (Think like, every current Slytherin in Harry Potter but Draco. That level of insight lacking.)

(I have it on good authority the sex is hot, but that's not from TSN-ers, that's from hockey people, and I doubt we're talking a similar caliber of quality here. I will link you if you ask, in G-Chat, but you need to read it and judge silently rather than openly 'cause I am WELL AWARE it sucks ass (aha, might even be literally, PUN AGAIN).)

I am laughing ridiculously hard at UNLIMITED SUPPLY OF DICKS, js. But like, NO. I'm awful at and very not into sex without insight. There's got to be some character building, even if it's PWP orgy sextravaganza type stuff. :P

GOOD GET ON SO I CAN SHOW YOU. YOU ARE GOING TO LOVE IT (I think; at least the characterizations I'm pretty sure you will). UGH BUT I WANT ALL THE THINGS INCLUDING THAT THING.

(RTMI eh? HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME.) ♥

[abriata]

Except, if you almost faceplanted despite the obvious desire to not do so, I would say the chair lied to you. Beat the stuffing out of it in punishment?

AHAHAHA BUT THE BEST PART IS I HAVE NEVER READ TWILIGHT (UNLIKE SOMEBODY) SO I DO NOT ACTUALLY KNOW HOW BAD THIS CHARACTERIZATION SUPPOSEDLY IS. I ONLY HAVE A VAGUE IDEA. BECAUSE I DID NOT READ TWILIGHT.

AND GOD DAMMIT YOUR PUNS ARE NOT FUNNY. Quit with the joke-making, this adorable grandfather-like professor might actually hurt me/kick me out soon/get mad at me. And my sole reaction is, "BUT YOU'RE LIKE MY GRANDPA PLEASE DON'T BE MAD AT ME."

I will be on in an hour! Who needs to study for OChem?

[slasher48]

Truth. But no, NOT EVER BEATING THIS LOVABLE FOOFY MASTERPIECE OF AWESOME BENEATH ME. :D

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. I DIDN'T SAY I LIKED IT, OKAY. PLUS, I HAVE LEGIT REASONS TO ARGUE ABOUT IT WITH CREDIBILITY, SO. SHUT UP. (And basically the gist is just that she's one-dimensional because she's like, predisposed for the reader to live vicariously through her. She has very non-specific qualities and appearance so that anybody who reads can basically be her and live her life as Edward's BRIDE OMG SWOON. :eye-roll:)

THEY ARE SO. THEY ARE VERY VERY FUNNY WHICH IS WHY YOU ARE FAILING IN EPIC WAYS AT BEING DECOROUS IN CLASS. :PPP

LMFAO. BUT YOU'RE LIKE MY GRANDPA. I feel the same way about teachers like that; I'm always way more upset when my grandfather (who is MADE OF WIN) is angry at me than my grandmother. She's just a raging bitch who never learned how to be nice or disagree with anybody gracefully, so the work to make her angry is kind of done just by my existence and independent thought.

NOBODY. O-CHEM CAN SUCK SOME NaCl-y DICK OKAY. FUCK IT. GET YOUR ASS ON.

/Shit I should probably shower before than then, shouldn't I. BBS! ♥

[slasher48]

I thought we'd need to correct the fact that this was NOT post-depositions. I just sat there after my comment being like WTF SELF YOU KNEW THAT YOU JUST REREAD IT. But truth be told, I had shit to do, so I mostly just skimmed it and let my brain coagulate the rest. :)

TRUTH. CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW THE OTHER DAY I WAS QUOTING THIS AT MY FRIEND LILA (WHO IS ACTUALLY BARELY EVEN IN THE FANDOM) AND SHE LOVED IT AND SO I WENT TROLLING FOR ALL THE GANGBANGS THERE EVER EVER WERE? XD.

IT IS HARD. Also, yes, progression is important, but it's so damn SUBJECTIVE. Like, who says maintaining childlike wonder is not important in progressing. Who says you should feel less as you're progressing but understand your feelings more? I want to know what fucker said that so I can butcher his face for trying to ruin my life. And HOW EXACTLY DO YOU SIMULTANEOUSLY CARE A LOT ABOUT YOUR APPEARANCE TO GIVE THE RIGHT IMPRESSION WHILE ALSO CARING MORE ABOUT WHAT YOU/OTHER PEOPLE HAVE INSIDE INSTEAD OF OUTSIDE? FUCK. OFF. HUMANING = difficult ALREADY without SETTING RULES.

(OH MY GOD. Another one didn't die, right? TELL ME THIS OR I WILL BE UNABLE TO SLEEP WITH SADNESS. Not really though; I sleep fine with sadness. It exhausts me.)

We do though. Possibly better than, if not tied with a few others, anybody else I know in fandom. :D

(YES IT IS ME -- maelstromofmymentality. EEEE THAT IS AWESOME. ALL I WANTED IN LIFE THE OTHER DAY WAS FOR YOU TO SEE THAT AND BE THE MARK TO MY SEAN, VIRTUAL EYE-CONTACT AND "EXACTLY. THAT'S EXACTLY RIGHT". I KEPT WAITING FOR YOU TO GET ON SO WE COULD DO THAT. WE ARE DOING THAT SHIT NEXT TIME YOU DO! That would be win, though, about the evil twin...damn. Kind of want one now.)

[abriata]

Ahahahaha I was not going to comment on the content errors. That seemed a bit like gift horse mouth-looking, and as you said: six a.m.! Like, the second comment on the other one? I still have no idea what you meant in one particular part. :P

WAS YOUR SEARCH FRUITFUL? SHARE SHARE SHARE.

WOW HIT A NERVE THERE. It's okay, bb, I support all kinds of progressions. Including backwards ones, sideways ones, and upside-down ones. (I'm going to spend the rest of the evening trying to imagine progressions that could be considered "upside-down.")

No, no. She is alive and well - all three remaining are. Unfortunately. They are six weeks old and, honest to God, I do not understand how cats as a species survived enough to evolve to their present incarnation. Because these kittens? Goddamn motherfucking annoying little bastards, and I don't get locked into a small room with them at night. I don't understand how Momma doesn't kill them! They climb on her face, all IMMA GONNA SMOTHER YOU WIF MY BELLY NOW TAKE THAT MOMMIIIIII and she is like GTFO *smacks into wall*. And this is really not an exaggeration. Nor is it an uncommon occurrence. I don't know how the species survived!

And omg, I know, right? Watch a sad movie, read a sad book, crash for the next twelve hours. Your brain is just like, "Fuck this shit, I'm going to nap now."

True story: I'm stressed recently. You know what I dream about when I stress? PORN. And not like, fun porn. This is not my brain going, "Good job today, have a reward." This is my brain going, "You have SHIT TO DO, I am going to TRAUMATIZE you into waking up."

I had a four hour dream about enemas the other night. SERIOUSLY. I was like ------> DDDDDDD: -----> T______T

I am sorry I did not get on! :( I missed lots of fun things, but but but. Priorities? I WILL BE ON SOON! I WILL TRY MY ABSOLUTE HARDEST OKAY DUDE

[slasher48]

WHAT PART THOUGH? Wait, is it the "So what if I jack off to you"? 'Cause if so you are TOTALLY RIGHT and I am SO WRONG, and I was rereading again and just face-palming all over the place. Like, get out Andrea, misunderstanding is your gig tonight. // Edit: Just reread what you said HERE and STILL MY GIG, MAN. I will ask you later when you're on what you meant about the other one. xD.

YES IT WAS. I WILL GIVE YOU ALL OF THE LINKS WHEN NEXT WE SPEAK. THERE ARE DELICIOUSLY MANY. OT EVERYTHING BUT P. WIN.

(Ahahahahaha. I am going to end up doing that now, too, but mostly laughing at it.) Not really a nerve, just like, rules for interaction are really fucking misleading considering reality is subjective. I want them all to GTFO. I mean, hasn't Zuck already proven that you don't need to worry about appearance or social niceties to be super goddamn successful just because you're fucking brilliant and insightful and self-directed?

:laughing at the kittens' antics: Oh my god, how DID they survive like that, what even. I guess you understand Mark's plight now with the kittens in that one fic, eh? ;)

Yeah, SERIOUSLY. Sometimes I do that on purpose; I especially like to watch Peter Pan (it's one of my FAVORITE movies) 'cause it is a love story that never was, and no matter how many sequels are written in fandom, never will be, 'cause the very riddle of Peter's being forbids it. Plus, the music is very soothing and melancholic.

HOLY SHIT. YOU DREAM ABOUT ENEMAS? And I thought my dream about talking to RL!Zuck's girlfriend while on the toilet was weird...

GET ON. DUDE. GET ON. I AM ON RIGHT NOW. LET US TALK IN REAL-TIME, PLSKTHKS.

[abriata]

lololol the understandingz you has them

I've raised kittens before! None of them were as mentally deficient as these are!

This was not the first dream about enemas, either. I told you. WEIRD PORN. Like, I keep a dream journal, because my dreams are always fucking weird and detailed, but I DO NOT WRITE THESE DOWN. Just. No.

I will be on soonnnnnnnnnnn :( UR MAKIN ME FEL BAD DOOD

[slasher48]

EXCEPT A THOUSAND TIMES NOT. xD.

Really? Damn, you got a bad batch. See if you can give 'em back and get smart ones?

UGH WHAT THE FUCK DUDE. I AM SO COOL WITH THE DREAM WHERE I KISS JOE JONAS AND HE TURNS INTO A BABY VERSUS THIS CRAZY SHIT YOU ARE THINKING UP.

THAT'S OKAY 'CAUSE WHEN YOU GET ON I'LL LIKELY BE NAKED AND ELSEWHERE SO WE CAN FEEL BAD TOGETHER WHEN I RETURN. :)