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my mom and dad saw Evan today. damnit, i should have went with them. they said he got his hair cut. gosh, i thought i had completely forgotten about him, but then my mom mentioned him, and there he is again, in my thoughts. gosh, like i dont have enough problems. i might get to see him sometime though because Mercersburg is undefeated this year so i might go give my support. even though i dont go there. i know people who do. and i know someone on the team, edgin. i really wish now that i would have gone there in 9th grade. and not because of evan. but because the only reason i didnt go there was because i didnt want to leave my friends, well, i dont really have any friends anymore, so it really wouldnt have mattered. and i could have gotten a good education. matt really wanted me to go. it would have been cool, being there with him. his friends had siblings that went there, and i guess thats why he wanted me to go. i should have went. maybe things would be different. maybe my parents would love me more. who knows. i should have went. gah.