Apr 18, 2007 23:14
If all of your friends were jumping off a bridge, would you jump too?
Friends are weird. They come with feelings and hugs, the constant need to be loved and listened to. They’re irksome. That’s why I only have one. I have a person, one person. No one else matters enough to have that title. She’s my person, and though she has her moments, she would never jump off a bridge. But, the thing is… neither of us jumped, but somehow we both ended up in the deep end.
She ended up in the water. She was helping a patient, and he freaked out and kicked her. She was in the water, sinking fast. I wasn’t there. I should’ve been, but I wasn’t. If I had been, then maybe it wouldn’t have happened, because you don’t let things like that happen to your person. She was dying. Her McDreamy brought her back, and she was dying. And, I left. I wasn’t in the water, but I was sinking just as fast. Izzie wanted to stand around and give some attempt at a motivational speech, but whatever, who needs that? I went to dollar store, bought a lot of random crap. Then I went to Joe’s and drank and showed off all my purchases. And I drank some more because it helped.
Burke wanted me to say goodbye. Who says goodbye to their person? You don’t. There shouldn’t be a goodbye, because you shouldn’t ever lose them. But he made me go back. And they were going to give up. They had tried, but they were going to stop. They apparently forgot that she’s Meredith and I’m Cristina and we don’t give up. They saved her, or maybe she decided to wake up and save herself. I told her I was going to marry Burke. And everything was okay again. No more sinking, no more jumping off bridges. But, if she decided to jump off a bridge, and if there was no way to stop her, I’d be there with her. You’re person shouldn’t jump alone, even it’s a stupid idea to jump.