hmmmmmmmm
wow
total year since ive updated
give or take a few days lol
so many things have changed
its ridiculous
one thing that hasnt is my spelling. lmao
anywayyyyy
yeah so alotta things have changed
friendships have been gained,lost,improved and opposite of improved. lol
one thing that has changed major is my mind.
it's werid and i dont think i like it all too much.
i think differently now.
about everything and anything its the strangest thing..
is it maturing? growing up?
i have no idea..all i know is that every thought in my head gets analized 100 times..
everything.. from fights, talks, even when i look at the sky. its so werid.
example.. looking at the blue or the grey in the sky and thinking about how beautiful it is. and how it could go away or stay, you dont really know. the world could end tomorrow. or in a week. the point is no one knows.
shit like that just pops in my head and im like wtf? since when do i think this way?
its good in a way but then again its bad. cuz i think about eveny possiablity.. the good and the bad and the stuff in between.
maybe it is growing up now that i think about it,
everyone and anyone around you is changeing.. though they might not admit it.. they are cuz they probley dont realize it.. like they are matureing and "finding themseleves" and its just werid. all these major things happen permits, licences, cars, road trips, drinking, first loves and seris relationships, jobs and responsiablities.
i dont know if im ready for it.. truely.. like yeah i want a job.
but god. once i get a job i cant not work.. and once i get a job its like BAM! heres money. and all these responsiablities and soon enough im gonna be outta my lil comfort zone.. highschool and my town and wtf thrown out into the real world and i ahave no idea what i wanna do with my life, where i wanna go, the things i wanna do, people to meet. its just crazyness and then i think about it and just cant picture my self doing it.
and then ive got this new found love of friends.. the show. lol i mean i've always loved friends and watched epiosds from some seasons but i was never like OMG ITS ON AT 8. NEED TO SEE iT. and i hate that i wasnt like that cuz now watching all the seasons from the very first im like completely in love with this show.. every character and everything and what sucks is i think its real and such but its not =(
and i hope that in my future i get friends like those..or my friends now become like the friends on the show, so loveing towards one another and everyone going through similar things and being out on ur own but knowing you have all these great people there to catch you if you fall..
ohh what a wonderful show, those writers are pure geniuses =]
well this is a long and thoughtful entry and i think im done.
but to end it on good note..
GA- in 2 weeks. the 26th im gone on that plan for 2 amazing weeks to see my bestestfriend sister and my loveing little or not so little anymore nephew =]
annd- ive started running like crazy(only been 2 days so far) with gloria and janine and matt joined us tonight. and we do 2 miles and i feel so great. ofcorse while doing it im like oh my god when is it over and then b4 i know it, it is over and i feel so accomplished and happy. woot!
well good night peeps.. probley not really.. going to go watch friends lmao.
and hopefully its not another year till i write.
total year since ive updated
give or take a few days lol
so many things have changed
its ridiculous
one thing that hasnt is my spelling. lmao
anywayyyyy
yeah so alotta things have changed
friendships have been gained,lost,improved and opposite of improved. lol
one thing that has changed major is my mind.
it's werid and i dont think i like it all too much.
i think differently now.
about everything and anything its the strangest thing..
is it maturing? growing up?
i have no idea..all i know is that every thought in my head gets analized 100 times..
everything.. from fights, talks, even when i look at the sky. its so werid.
example.. looking at the blue or the grey in the sky and thinking about how beautiful it is. and how it could go away or stay, you dont really know. the world could end tomorrow. or in a week. the point is no one knows.
shit like that just pops in my head and im like wtf? since when do i think this way?
its good in a way but then again its bad. cuz i think about eveny possiablity.. the good and the bad and the stuff in between.
maybe it is growing up now that i think about it,
everyone and anyone around you is changeing.. though they might not admit it.. they are cuz they probley dont realize it.. like they are matureing and "finding themseleves" and its just werid. all these major things happen permits, licences, cars, road trips, drinking, first loves and seris relationships, jobs and responsiablities.
i dont know if im ready for it.. truely.. like yeah i want a job.
but god. once i get a job i cant not work.. and once i get a job its like BAM! heres money. and all these responsiablities and soon enough im gonna be outta my lil comfort zone.. highschool and my town and wtf thrown out into the real world and i ahave no idea what i wanna do with my life, where i wanna go, the things i wanna do, people to meet. its just crazyness and then i think about it and just cant picture my self doing it.
and then ive got this new found love of friends.. the show. lol i mean i've always loved friends and watched epiosds from some seasons but i was never like OMG ITS ON AT 8. NEED TO SEE iT. and i hate that i wasnt like that cuz now watching all the seasons from the very first im like completely in love with this show.. every character and everything and what sucks is i think its real and such but its not =(
and i hope that in my future i get friends like those..or my friends now become like the friends on the show, so loveing towards one another and everyone going through similar things and being out on ur own but knowing you have all these great people there to catch you if you fall..
ohh what a wonderful show, those writers are pure geniuses =]
well this is a long and thoughtful entry and i think im done.
but to end it on good note..
GA- in 2 weeks. the 26th im gone on that plan for 2 amazing weeks to see my bestestfriend sister and my loveing little or not so little anymore nephew =]
annd- ive started running like crazy(only been 2 days so far) with gloria and janine and matt joined us tonight. and we do 2 miles and i feel so great. ofcorse while doing it im like oh my god when is it over and then b4 i know it, it is over and i feel so accomplished and happy. woot!
well good night peeps.. probley not really.. going to go watch friends lmao.
and hopefully its not another year till i write.