Baby girl, you make me feel You know you make me feel so real I love you more than sex appeal

[aboxofsecrets]

I like him allot
I can not afford to get hurt
Am I already
I want him to be happy
even if it is not with me
I talked to him about him things I have never talk to any one about
At least I was under the impression that I was going to be happy for one day
I feel like a slut
I hate myself even more now
I thought this might work out
I made him mad now
I told him to go for it
he doesnt understand that I am trying to save myself
I cried
Kitty says I was over reacting
but i think I always do
I felt so real for the most of the day
and then it was a buzz kill
when he told me about her
I guess you cant loose what you have never had
but I was so close
I felt it
I felt happiness
for once in a long time
I felt real
but what is it now?
what should I do?
Should I pretend this never happened
he said he wasnt going to do it because it was detriot
but I dont want him to feel like i would have been upset
I would have
but I couldnt let him know that
I have to be a big girl
I cant depend on people
I need to recoup
I need to breath
to relax
I need some adavan