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I've always had control issues, especially when it comes to sharing emotions and secrets. I avoid telling people what I'm thinking or feeling because I no longer have "control" over that information once it has been shared. I've always felt that sharing my thoughts and feelings makes me vulnerable and appear to be weak. I've always feared letting people in and what that might entail. It's not healthy, and I'm not sure how to break myself from the habit.
For instance, I have been living with a personal secret for the past couple of years. Very reluctantly, I shared it recently with the one person to whom I have always felt the most vulnerable, and even though there was a small sense of relief, I still have fears that I'm no longer in control of that information, and I fear the uncertainty of where I stand and where I will stand with that person in the future. :(
For instance, I have been living with a personal secret for the past couple of years. Very reluctantly, I shared it recently with the one person to whom I have always felt the most vulnerable, and even though there was a small sense of relief, I still have fears that I'm no longer in control of that information, and I fear the uncertainty of where I stand and where I will stand with that person in the future. :(