¿Que pasaría si nunca muero?

[about_that]

What's on my mind? Well a few things, mostly concerning relationships. I get confused. Don't I know what I want? Just don't think so much and let things take their course. I like people that are genuinely nice. It's cold, would you like my sweater? It's ok that you don't drink, here, have some Coke. I'm excited, honestly. And I didn't

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Re: from: a stranger named Mary

[lost_mysteries]

The reason that it isn't the same with Katy and Ryan, is because they never really were on my level. I related to you more, and, fr the most part of my childhood, Katy and Ryan were the "older siblings" much more mature and separated from me. And you know Katy. She was always so different from all of us that it just isn't like someone i really know is leaving.
And when I speak of you drinking and stuff, it's not completely a negative thing. You know, a bunch of my friends here do drugs and drink, and a few go to parties, so I'm sortof desensitized now, but not completely. It's just that the family is my little bubble, the safety zone that the real world never enters. And I'm just not used to thinking of you guys doing stuff. It's like, I don't mind when people cuss (I cuss all the time) but when people in my family do it, I don't like it all. And it's not a hasty judgement, it's just a feeling I have. And it's the fact that it's available to you which really strikes me. I was so naive in Paso, I feel like this is your first in contact with this stuff, even though it most certainly isn't. It just doesn't seem right.

The van is so embarassing.

I actually am doing better, though I had Saturday school today. That's a drag.

I care deeply for you.
Par

PS. There's a new tape from Bin Laden out. maybe you've heard about it