You have a very large gift to have that for yourself and feel those things. I remember getting a bit out of your loving yourself post earlier this summer, and I think I'm less on the un-self-loving side of the spectrum right now, but nonetheless I enjoy it and relate to it. Your ideas are counter-cultural, or at least very unemphasized in our culture; you don't hear people describing how much they love themselves at all, and yet I think that you're right in the beauty of it for the soul and being.
I especially think that once you're in a place where you find yourself doing what you would prefer to be doing with your life (following your conscience), you're living up to your potential and thus your own standards of excellence. You seem to have been there for awhile, and I'm more or less getting there (this environment here at Santa Cruz works very nicely for me).
I think I have a stronger desire for a "soul mate" than you, not even romantically, and sharing some of the intensity of the moments of inspiration in my solitude sounds very fulfilling to me given my friendship expereiences in the past. Haven't had a really close friend in awhile, though.
Anyways, good to read your entry, best wishes in Spain.
Yeah seriously. There are so many songs and poems and movies and shit about loving someone else but never any about loving yourself. It's defintely underestimated.
I don't think I believe in soulmates, but I don't think you meant that literally. I know what you mean, having one person on the same wavelength to share those moments would be a beautiful thing, but after having over a year of that and virtually no time alone, it's something that I'll start thinking about later. Being single right now seems very attractive to me, although good friends are always a must. I think that's what you're talking about anyway, in which case I agree with you, but it's just of least importance to me. I don't know if that made any sense.
Glad SC is working out, hope you can stay there all year. I'm sure you'll be fine.
I especially think that once you're in a place where you find yourself doing what you would prefer to be doing with your life (following your conscience), you're living up to your potential and thus your own standards of excellence. You seem to have been there for awhile, and I'm more or less getting there (this environment here at Santa Cruz works very nicely for me).
I think I have a stronger desire for a "soul mate" than you, not even romantically, and sharing some of the intensity of the moments of inspiration in my solitude sounds very fulfilling to me given my friendship expereiences in the past. Haven't had a really close friend in awhile, though.
Anyways, good to read your entry, best wishes in Spain.
Your brother,
Ryan
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I don't think I believe in soulmates, but I don't think you meant that literally. I know what you mean, having one person on the same wavelength to share those moments would be a beautiful thing, but after having over a year of that and virtually no time alone, it's something that I'll start thinking about later. Being single right now seems very attractive to me, although good friends are always a must. I think that's what you're talking about anyway, in which case I agree with you, but it's just of least importance to me. I don't know if that made any sense.
Glad SC is working out, hope you can stay there all year. I'm sure you'll be fine.
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