sunrise... i hate it...
im on my 12th hour of drinking now... wow... im not even drunk... but i keep drinking...
im not sure what im doin in this life of mine anymore but i think it passes for living when i dont have xavier and when i do i think it passes for joy... i hope at least.
i called alicia earlier but she was at the library doin stuff... called her cuz i was listening to the same song im listening to now and it made me think of her... was funny that night hearing her try to sing it.. hahah.. but now shes all down lately.. which is no fun.
i thought about callin caitlin too.. when im drinking she always pops in my mind outta no where and i wanna call but i dont wanna wake her up... tonight i was sitting at los' drinkin watching some anime.. and somethin one of the female charcters said reminded me of her so much.. i really miss her..
in other news.. my mother apparently thinks im becoming homosexual cuz i dont bring females home with me... its turned into a huge drama thing between her and me.. because she keeps pestering everyone in my family about it.. my sister told her that id went on dates and had even gotten laid.. i was like gee thanks shawn thats what i want mom to know... but then again my sisters talkin about hookin me up with Dopey(Jessica) which noooo..we call her dopey cuz she looks like dopey from snow white in the face.. or used to.. i havent seen her in awhile.. but she just recently got divorced.. and i never really thought of her like that anyways.. but who knows.. maybe ill date her and bring her home and fuck her and leave the used condoms all over so my mom will stop thinking im becoming homo.. weird fucking mother that i have... ive never seen a mom encourage their son to go get laid... furthermore the reason shes doin it pisses me off.. and thats just cuz jaime has a new man so she thinks i should get a new woman.. i dont mind getting a new woman but i want something beyond physical contact.. which my mother cant comprehend coming from me apparently...
xavier is growin up so fast.. he sits and watches anime with me and no longer wants me to get shit for him.. he wants to do it on his own.. i get him back sunday.. i cant wait.. if i can get him to stop cussing and completly potty trained before the end of the year ill be so happy... hell id even let him say ass if he would just stop saying mother fucker... *sighs* and his interest in females makes me proud and yet worried at the same time.. cuz hes always sayin look at her boobies or her butt.. as much as i degrade women i know with jokes about the kitchen and everything.. it bothers me to think that hes acting like that at such a young age.. he doesnt learn some females names he just says look at her boobies.. even though he sees a couple of these females alot... it worries me.. i dunno why it just does..
oh well im done... time to drink some more beer and watch love hina...
im not sure what im doin in this life of mine anymore but i think it passes for living when i dont have xavier and when i do i think it passes for joy... i hope at least.
i called alicia earlier but she was at the library doin stuff... called her cuz i was listening to the same song im listening to now and it made me think of her... was funny that night hearing her try to sing it.. hahah.. but now shes all down lately.. which is no fun.
i thought about callin caitlin too.. when im drinking she always pops in my mind outta no where and i wanna call but i dont wanna wake her up... tonight i was sitting at los' drinkin watching some anime.. and somethin one of the female charcters said reminded me of her so much.. i really miss her..
in other news.. my mother apparently thinks im becoming homosexual cuz i dont bring females home with me... its turned into a huge drama thing between her and me.. because she keeps pestering everyone in my family about it.. my sister told her that id went on dates and had even gotten laid.. i was like gee thanks shawn thats what i want mom to know... but then again my sisters talkin about hookin me up with Dopey(Jessica) which noooo..we call her dopey cuz she looks like dopey from snow white in the face.. or used to.. i havent seen her in awhile.. but she just recently got divorced.. and i never really thought of her like that anyways.. but who knows.. maybe ill date her and bring her home and fuck her and leave the used condoms all over so my mom will stop thinking im becoming homo.. weird fucking mother that i have... ive never seen a mom encourage their son to go get laid... furthermore the reason shes doin it pisses me off.. and thats just cuz jaime has a new man so she thinks i should get a new woman.. i dont mind getting a new woman but i want something beyond physical contact.. which my mother cant comprehend coming from me apparently...
xavier is growin up so fast.. he sits and watches anime with me and no longer wants me to get shit for him.. he wants to do it on his own.. i get him back sunday.. i cant wait.. if i can get him to stop cussing and completly potty trained before the end of the year ill be so happy... hell id even let him say ass if he would just stop saying mother fucker... *sighs* and his interest in females makes me proud and yet worried at the same time.. cuz hes always sayin look at her boobies or her butt.. as much as i degrade women i know with jokes about the kitchen and everything.. it bothers me to think that hes acting like that at such a young age.. he doesnt learn some females names he just says look at her boobies.. even though he sees a couple of these females alot... it worries me.. i dunno why it just does..
oh well im done... time to drink some more beer and watch love hina...