well it had to happen at some point
guyssssssssss. i came down... :( but i'm up again, so it's all good... right?
parce que now i've realised that I can be happy, so when I'm sad I think hold on a minute... I don't need to be sad... and then I'm up again! yay! but if i wasn't sad sometimes, i wouldn't appreciate the happy times would I? and it was so nice a couple of weeks ago, i was in the park with Jodie, and i just sat on the bench and thought... wow... so this is happiness. I mean, ok, people are happy quite a lot, but do you ever stand back and think... I'm happy? cos we notice when we're sad, don't we? we sit and feel sorry for ourselves, and mope about how the wolrd has turned against us, until we snap out of it and then we just carry on. but this time i actually recognised my happiness. and now i know what it's like, i'm going to try everything to maintain that state of mind.
yes my happiness this morning did give camilla a certain sickening feeling... but you have to admit camoo, you would have been happy tooooo. it was cute. and it was cos i'd said i'd been feeling unhappy... so i appreciated it mucho.
wow, i'm gonna be going throught the emotions here... in like a week i've been happy/sad/angry/hurt/thrilled/loved/excited. and i don't get angry often... it was a weird feeling, but i think it was more exasperation to be honest. but this is what being a teenager is about isn't it? feeling all these things (oooer!!!!!!!!!!!!) and experiencing stuff... dya no what i mean? or am i just waffling along to myself?