that sense of failure
I didn't get the part. I'm devastated. I was hysterical when i found out - how pathetic is that? It was probably more than that - mum had given me a leaflet about Eptopic Pregnancy, to help me understand it, and i think everything all just got to me. This feels like the final nail in the coffin - but i'm not quite sure what the coffin represents..Don't worry it isn't suicide. I'm past all that, well, at least i hope i am.
I do feel a bit hopeless though, but i guess that's to be expected considering the situation. I'm feeling increasingly irritated with my body, not being able to do things and carry things. Managed to have a bath by myself today and wasn't scared to touch the scars (which are shrinking woo!).
Beth said she'll come round tommorow which will be nice. Still no word from Rich - suprise suprise.
I do feel a bit hopeless though, but i guess that's to be expected considering the situation. I'm feeling increasingly irritated with my body, not being able to do things and carry things. Managed to have a bath by myself today and wasn't scared to touch the scars (which are shrinking woo!).
Beth said she'll come round tommorow which will be nice. Still no word from Rich - suprise suprise.