so ronery
Well, the audition went well i think. They said i got the accent right, and asked me to keep my nose blocked up..lol
My Agent's daughter (who is also an actress - Sammy*) is now back with her mum as her agent after moving to a top london agency after she landed a part in a big film. I was a bit concerned at first, she's the same age as me, and looks younger than she is, and i must admit i thought "Oh God, her mum's gonna send her up for everything, and me for nothing" but logically, we don't look that alike, some castings we will both go to, some we won't. I honestly don't think my agent would short-change me like that.
I travelled up to the audition with Sammy (as she was auditioning too), had a good chat - long journey though.
In a moment of weakness, i rang Rich on the train home, asking if he fancied going out for a drink - i just felt like i desperately wanted to see him. He said he "wasn't sure" what he was doing, but that he would call me later. He apologized for not being touched, complaining that his phone had been cut off - which i knew - to which i replied, "yes but you have a landline phone don't you?" "fair play" he replied. I put the phone down.
Got home, was starving, mum bless her heart cooked me something, and i was so knackered. Thought to myself "I can't be bothered to go out." I had a whole plan figured out "If Rich rings, i'm just gonna not answer it. I know two wrongs don't make a right, but i'd like to give him a taste of his own medicene." Of course, the oppurtunity never came up, because, naturally, Rich never called. Leaving me feeling ten times worse.
Another thing i have noticed lately..does every single person i have ever known now have a boyfriend/girlfriend? I'm so fed up, i feel like an outcast. Well, except for Beth of course, but she just got out of a 3 year relationship. And my friend Natasha just finished with her boyfriend of a month or something. But that's it. Seriously, everyone else i know is with someone. What's wrong with me? Am i freak? I guess in reality, i've never had a proper boyfriend, not a real one, not one i could honestly say i have had a relationship with. Why? I honestly don't get it..am i that repulsive? Or maybe i'm just boring? I know i don't go out a lot, but in all fairness, in this area, there is only one type of bloke you are going to meet at a club. And i get plenty of guys interested in me, but no one ever seems to want to make it serious. Am i destined to be alone forever? Like that woman who was on This Morning, 42 years old and a virgin (okay the virgin bit doesn't apply to me), she had been waiting for a boyfriend, never got one, ended up hiring an escort to lose her virginity too. That's going to be me isn't it? I'm going to have to start hiring escorts to take me out to dinner. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh