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After years of pandering, living in the past, and re-creating the same sense of self (via nostalgia) - not to mention a few weeks of sickness - I'm ready to finally move forward; or at least to the present. I've learned that you just can't accomplish some things while you are trying to recreate the "you" from 1997 over and over.
This whole engine is about self indulgence, right? Well, take that the last eleven years. You are over.
I'm finally polishing off co-authoring my first book (that is credited as such, anyway) and have work published be Routledge this year. That makes me smart, right? ...or at least capable of moving on.
A person cannot recieve the "the shittiness of this production fits the subject matter" review more than one hundred times before it drives them not to make something shitty, right?
So thanks to everyone who identified these faults and traits, particularly big S. and to a lesser degree Adam, because "knowing is half the battle" and all that. Thanks also to those who fucked me over for forcing me to change my mindset, if not behavior and approach to things.
Additionally, I would like to point out that 2007 was the worst year of all time, for a multitude of reasons, namely death, poverty, sickness, debt, unexplained weakness, fatigue, death, new pains, mean people, and more death.
I'm always confused. Am I supposed to write these things like this is a public forum or like it's my notebook?
This whole engine is about self indulgence, right? Well, take that the last eleven years. You are over.
I'm finally polishing off co-authoring my first book (that is credited as such, anyway) and have work published be Routledge this year. That makes me smart, right? ...or at least capable of moving on.
A person cannot recieve the "the shittiness of this production fits the subject matter" review more than one hundred times before it drives them not to make something shitty, right?
So thanks to everyone who identified these faults and traits, particularly big S. and to a lesser degree Adam, because "knowing is half the battle" and all that. Thanks also to those who fucked me over for forcing me to change my mindset, if not behavior and approach to things.
Additionally, I would like to point out that 2007 was the worst year of all time, for a multitude of reasons, namely death, poverty, sickness, debt, unexplained weakness, fatigue, death, new pains, mean people, and more death.
I'm always confused. Am I supposed to write these things like this is a public forum or like it's my notebook?