take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
So, just a quick update between laundry loads and running back to school for a meeting--
life has been hectic.
However well things end up turning out for me in whatever aspect, I'm still, mostly, terribly unhappy. This has become ridiculously obvious to not only myself in the last few days/weeks, but my close friends and boyfriend as well. I don't really know whats going on, but I think it's because my stress level is
THROUGH THE ROOF.
but, there's not much to do about that. Stress will always be making my life miserable because I have discovered after trial and error, that it is
a) impossible to ignore
b) impossible not to care about
c) ironically the driving motivation for accomplishing all the shit on my plate on a day-to-day basis
If I wasn't stressed, I wouldn't be frantic. If I'm not frantic, I'm not quick on my feet. If I'm not quick on my feet, I don't get all my shit done. If I don't get all my shit done,
I die.
Because there's nothing worse than unaccomplishment.
unaccomplishment? Yeah, whatever.
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But on a lighter note, I'm doing well in my class. I got the highest grade in the class on my midterm and I was really happy about it.
[[I think I piss people off when I talk about the things I do. I try not to talk too much, but I mean..who doesn't talk that much when they're excited? I think people look at it as bragging, but why can't I be excited for doing good each time I do good? It's nice to work hard and reap rewards. I guess no one gives a fuck.]]
Lighter note, right.
I graduate in less than two months!
Not that I necessarily know what I'm going to do. It's too soon to tell I guess. All I know is that I tend to be really antsy, and I don't think I'm going to stay in South Fla for too much longer. But I don't know for sure. I know I want to continue school...but I don't know where. Maybe FAU? Business with concentration in hospitality.
Isn't it too late to apply?
Crap, I don't know.
Speaking of not knowing, I have to get to my meeting with Student Financial Services. In 5 minutes.
bah.
life has been hectic.
However well things end up turning out for me in whatever aspect, I'm still, mostly, terribly unhappy. This has become ridiculously obvious to not only myself in the last few days/weeks, but my close friends and boyfriend as well. I don't really know whats going on, but I think it's because my stress level is
THROUGH THE ROOF.
but, there's not much to do about that. Stress will always be making my life miserable because I have discovered after trial and error, that it is
a) impossible to ignore
b) impossible not to care about
c) ironically the driving motivation for accomplishing all the shit on my plate on a day-to-day basis
If I wasn't stressed, I wouldn't be frantic. If I'm not frantic, I'm not quick on my feet. If I'm not quick on my feet, I don't get all my shit done. If I don't get all my shit done,
I die.
Because there's nothing worse than unaccomplishment.
unaccomplishment? Yeah, whatever.
------------------------------------------------------------------------
But on a lighter note, I'm doing well in my class. I got the highest grade in the class on my midterm and I was really happy about it.
[[I think I piss people off when I talk about the things I do. I try not to talk too much, but I mean..who doesn't talk that much when they're excited? I think people look at it as bragging, but why can't I be excited for doing good each time I do good? It's nice to work hard and reap rewards. I guess no one gives a fuck.]]
Lighter note, right.
I graduate in less than two months!
Not that I necessarily know what I'm going to do. It's too soon to tell I guess. All I know is that I tend to be really antsy, and I don't think I'm going to stay in South Fla for too much longer. But I don't know for sure. I know I want to continue school...but I don't know where. Maybe FAU? Business with concentration in hospitality.
Isn't it too late to apply?
Crap, I don't know.
Speaking of not knowing, I have to get to my meeting with Student Financial Services. In 5 minutes.
bah.