bullying the jokebox
so, sophomore year has officially started, and I think I'll like all my classes. Because I have more classes that are intertwined with my major, this academic term isn't going to be as easy as the last because they will actually require me to be awake, let alone think. It'll be okay though, I'm trying to get my hands on a job opportunity because they are all around..but I don't have any means of getting anywhere. For example, I walked to school today from my apt. I don't really have a choice..the boys have morning labs, so they are gone from 6:30am to 2pm every day, and most of my days dont start until 9:40am. I normally wouldn't have any complaint about walking..it's actually cool because I want/need the excerise, but it's so god damn hot outside it's ridiculous. So here I am in heels and professional dress in 90 degree weather sweating my fucking arse off? No, I don't think so. So I wore my buddy Kyle's sandals, wore a wifebeater and walked my happy ass down the road to school with my shirt slung over my shoulder and my flats shoved deeply into my purse. I must have looked riduclous in adidia slip ons that were approx. 3 sizes too big and a pin striped suit skirt and a wife beater.
ha.
Anyway, minus the transportation issue and the fact that I'm spending money without making any day to day...life is all right. I have a couple classes that have really captured my attention, even after only two days (Leadership) so i think I'll learn a lot this term.
aaaand, in the baking & pastry world...Chef Angnardo (my old team coach) approached me and asked me to compete in the knowledge bowl as the baking and pastry student. Now, I don't know if it's because I'm the only loser who doesn't have a job and he can con into spending so many hours studying and studying for a knowledge bowl, but I thought maybe it was because he trusts me to be knowledgeable and a good representative of JWU. I'm hoping it's the latter, but you never know. Anyway, on top of that, I've been asked to compete as team captain in this years ICC competition 2008! The thing is, I don't know how the fuck I'm going to do it because my co-op is scheduled for winter term (in the middle of the practices and competition) and I don't have a car to commute to school to work (where ever I'm doing my co-op). These are humongus obsticles I have no idea how I am going to get around.
Regardless, my first priority is my co-op and industry experience. Then, if I can fit in all the competitions...than that's awesome. But my lack of wheels and my poor state has got me kindve stranded for an answer. Merh.
But that's cool that the chefs remember that I'm worth a shit.
even a little bit.
Other than that, This co-op thing has got me stressed out to the max. I don't know where to fucking go--whether I should go overseas or domestic or what. It doesn't help that when people ask, "well, what do you want?" I have no answer. I just want to find myself in a good learning environment under a chef who is worth a shit, and be considered that I have at least SOME skill (as oppose to being thrown aside simply because I'm American) and learn an ass load from my time there.
Is that so much to ask?
Okay, it is. Because there's no way I can possibly know if a place can offer me all of that before I dive right into it. So, yay for more risks? I can't say I regret going to Harbor Beach at all, actually, it was a real eye-opener, and now that I'm out of the situation, I know I could have handled a lot of things better in the kitchen with who I was working with and the situation I was in. But now I understand and it was a learning experience. How can I regret something like that?
I'm just trying to get through one day at a time at this point and I'm perfectly content with it that way. I mean, I'm still thinking a million miles a monute, but I'm desperately trying to slow down and just enjoy the day for what it is and not worry so much about the future (I think I'm really going to like Leadership class). I think that is one of my biggest problems in my unhappiness.
Speaking of happiness, Eric is coming down to see me tonight at the apt. Oh, and yeah. I got my own apt. with three other guys and for serious cheap! I really like living off campus because it's saving me a dickload of money, but it's harder to get to school and to get around. All three of my roommates have cars though, and occassionally so far they have let me drive their cars to school for class, and that's been nice. With an exception of today. I digress. Eric is coming down tonight to spend some time with me. I think we may go on a date. :D Fuck he makes me happier than I let myself think. [[I really don't give you enough credit, Eric. And that's another thing I'm trying desperately to work on. I love you.]]
So now I'm sitting in The Mix on my beautiful laptop furnished by my awesome brother buying time so I can hitch a ride with the boys back to the apt. Yes, this entry is super long and no, I don't expect you to read all of it. No worries, this thing is more for me to talk to myself than anything else. I hope to see some of you real sooon (coughCHASEANDNICOLEcough) and...
ha.
Anyway, minus the transportation issue and the fact that I'm spending money without making any day to day...life is all right. I have a couple classes that have really captured my attention, even after only two days (Leadership) so i think I'll learn a lot this term.
aaaand, in the baking & pastry world...Chef Angnardo (my old team coach) approached me and asked me to compete in the knowledge bowl as the baking and pastry student. Now, I don't know if it's because I'm the only loser who doesn't have a job and he can con into spending so many hours studying and studying for a knowledge bowl, but I thought maybe it was because he trusts me to be knowledgeable and a good representative of JWU. I'm hoping it's the latter, but you never know. Anyway, on top of that, I've been asked to compete as team captain in this years ICC competition 2008! The thing is, I don't know how the fuck I'm going to do it because my co-op is scheduled for winter term (in the middle of the practices and competition) and I don't have a car to commute to school to work (where ever I'm doing my co-op). These are humongus obsticles I have no idea how I am going to get around.
Regardless, my first priority is my co-op and industry experience. Then, if I can fit in all the competitions...than that's awesome. But my lack of wheels and my poor state has got me kindve stranded for an answer. Merh.
But that's cool that the chefs remember that I'm worth a shit.
even a little bit.
Other than that, This co-op thing has got me stressed out to the max. I don't know where to fucking go--whether I should go overseas or domestic or what. It doesn't help that when people ask, "well, what do you want?" I have no answer. I just want to find myself in a good learning environment under a chef who is worth a shit, and be considered that I have at least SOME skill (as oppose to being thrown aside simply because I'm American) and learn an ass load from my time there.
Is that so much to ask?
Okay, it is. Because there's no way I can possibly know if a place can offer me all of that before I dive right into it. So, yay for more risks? I can't say I regret going to Harbor Beach at all, actually, it was a real eye-opener, and now that I'm out of the situation, I know I could have handled a lot of things better in the kitchen with who I was working with and the situation I was in. But now I understand and it was a learning experience. How can I regret something like that?
I'm just trying to get through one day at a time at this point and I'm perfectly content with it that way. I mean, I'm still thinking a million miles a monute, but I'm desperately trying to slow down and just enjoy the day for what it is and not worry so much about the future (I think I'm really going to like Leadership class). I think that is one of my biggest problems in my unhappiness.
Speaking of happiness, Eric is coming down to see me tonight at the apt. Oh, and yeah. I got my own apt. with three other guys and for serious cheap! I really like living off campus because it's saving me a dickload of money, but it's harder to get to school and to get around. All three of my roommates have cars though, and occassionally so far they have let me drive their cars to school for class, and that's been nice. With an exception of today. I digress. Eric is coming down tonight to spend some time with me. I think we may go on a date. :D Fuck he makes me happier than I let myself think. [[I really don't give you enough credit, Eric. And that's another thing I'm trying desperately to work on. I love you.]]
So now I'm sitting in The Mix on my beautiful laptop furnished by my awesome brother buying time so I can hitch a ride with the boys back to the apt. Yes, this entry is super long and no, I don't expect you to read all of it. No worries, this thing is more for me to talk to myself than anything else. I hope to see some of you real sooon (coughCHASEANDNICOLEcough) and...