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man all i do on this thing is complain. heres the only thing im going to complain about.....people saying stuff to look cool in front of other people. there im done. this weekend i have a couple of goals...im going to try and conquer my fears. ok i know that your probably laughing at me now but thats ok, my life doesnt revolve around what people think about me. my fears are like a disease, my brain definitly has a chemical embalance and i think this could help me. im such a nervous person im always walking on eggshells. i go to sleep miserable and wake up nervous and this combination results in me being a negative person. i dont want to be angry anymore. and if ive ever pissed anyone off reading this, i apologize. the sudden change in my life is starting to really take its tole on me. for a while i was really dependent on breanna. i mean we dated for like 2&1/2 years and were together quite a bit. i realize that its never going to work out like we hoped it would in the first place, which im getting better dealing with. but im really starting to miss being hugged, someone to make me smile, and feeling so secure. Ive been doing pretty good taking my mind off of it, but sadly i dont really have enough friends to keep me busy as often as i need. i still care about her, and i hope that someday in the future we could possibly become friends. anyways, my dad bought a new car last night its pretty sweet. i got offered a job in midland. not sure if im going to take it or not due to the fact that im not going to be here for much longer. its a tough decision. i could use some advice