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[ablepragmatism]

Lets talk about the drama filled stuff first. Last night I got an urgent call from Nate(the EX-MAN...not to be confused with the X-Men), and he wanted me to come over to his house....but he wouldn't tell me why. There were several things going through my head....adrock was kind enough to suggest that he might have a gun.....but I was thinking more along the lines of suicide. Thankfully it was neither. He called me over there just to tell me.....that he's not letting me go that easy. AND THAT WAS IT. What the fuck did he expect...for me to just say...OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!! and fuck him or what? I think not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is more the phrase that came out of my mouth. I thought I had explained myself clearly just the night before, but no. I asked him why he didn't think that it was over. He told me it was because I still had the key to his house. So my instant response was to take it off of my key ring and give it to him. I just let it set on the couch pillow I had placed in between of us for a while until we got done talking. When I was getting ready to leave I picked up the key and tried to hand it to him. He just sat there and looked at my had with the key in it for what seemed like forever. When I was persistant.....he got up and left the room crying. UGH. Where are all of the manly men...thats what I want to know. This generation of men...I don't know.....they're all like girls. But anyways....I got up and found him sitting in a corner and hugged him for a while. Then I cracked some jokes to make him laugh. And then I left with the key in my hand. I would have left it there but I want to get all of my shit back at some point in time......more likely though the real reason I did it was because I didn't want him to be sad. I felt bad...or at least feel like I should at this point.....but the feelings for him as a boyfriend are just not there. I wanna date around...and go on dates(that I don't have to go pick up). If I wanted to go pick someone up for a date all the time I would just get another girlfriend. Which I might just do!!!

Work is going great. I'm getting along with everyone and everyone is getting along with me. Today was a really great day....and I'm in the best mood ever. I don't know if its cuz I get a paycheck tomorrow...or that I got plenty of sleep, but I don't care cuz I'm feelin good.