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Why is it that any time I defent my ideas I feel like a bad person? That when I explain my philosophies or rationale I have to make every other sentance an apology? Why do I feel short of breath when making a statement of my own beleifs, terrified I'm going to offend someone and start a flame war?
I'm so anxious. So awkward.
I've been accused too much of being a hellacious bitch. The internet has not been kind to my self esteem. I feel as if around every corner will be someone I used to RP with, holding a big hammer that says "STFU NOOB".
I don't like this feeling.
I LIKE debate. I like disagreeing and passionately arguing my case. I freaking competed in debate. It's fun to me. But so many peopel take it to hard and take it to deep and misunderstand and I've lost to many friends over stupid little shit... I don't even talk about anything anymore.
I am a COWARD.
This is unacceptable.
(Please not: I'm not mad at the people I've recently been debating with. I'm mad at MYSELF for not havign the balls to stand up for my very strong beleifs.)
I'm so anxious. So awkward.
I've been accused too much of being a hellacious bitch. The internet has not been kind to my self esteem. I feel as if around every corner will be someone I used to RP with, holding a big hammer that says "STFU NOOB".
I don't like this feeling.
I LIKE debate. I like disagreeing and passionately arguing my case. I freaking competed in debate. It's fun to me. But so many peopel take it to hard and take it to deep and misunderstand and I've lost to many friends over stupid little shit... I don't even talk about anything anymore.
I am a COWARD.
This is unacceptable.
(Please not: I'm not mad at the people I've recently been debating with. I'm mad at MYSELF for not havign the balls to stand up for my very strong beleifs.)