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i know i am not the only person who just can't feel at ease in the perfect situation. never has the word too been so hurtful. i am too in love, too jealous, too possesive, too sensitive. i am excessive to a regrettable degree, and you just aren't. for some reason that just proves impossible for you. i know that i am drunk but i also know when too much is too much, when the smallest joke sincerely hurts, and you just don't think that maybe it could. and i guess that is the point of this, someday i'd just like to be the first thing on somebody's mind, for my happiness to hold more weight than something this trivial. for you to think "this might hurt adam" before you say it. because it does. i don't know why this is continously too much to ask, and i'm starting to think it has more to do with me. i guess we'll see.