- Slightly disoriented-

[abject_vision]

Well, I was going to finish clearing out the Salva mines so I could aquire some fol, and the next thing I know that mine leads me to this place...I don't think I'll ever get the chance to train in peace again, which is unacceptable, I must not allow my self to weaken. I'll have to find some alternative to training like normal.

I've also learned

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[glasstree]

There's a gym. It's not much, but it's nice.

If you use a weapon, I will duel you. I'm dying to fight someone who uses a sword... But no one here does. I, on the other hand, use rapier.

Solitude... is an odd thing. It took me a while to get over the attitude I had, which happened to resemble your's quite a bit... I can't say I'm cheerful, but I'm moving on. I think... I deserve happiness...

[abject_vision]

A...gym?

-unsheathes sword- A challenge...?

Well, I know that I deserve nothing in the form of happiness....

[glasstree]

Yes. I prefer to fight in the garden, though. The scenery there is much more pleasant. The gym is all wood and... almost an atrocity to a fighter.

Mmhmm. I'm not the Seitokai Treasurer for nothing. And I... am also not called the "beautiful panther" because I am slow on my feet. Of course, I mean this as a friendly match. Nothing too serious that would leave anyone bleeding all over.

Or at least bleeding too much. After all, I am a lady.

Once upon a time I felt that too. Maybe you can grow to feel the same way.

[abject_vision]

Yes, I've always found the forests of Expel the best for training...

And I'm not known as the strongest fighter on Expel for nothing...I have no need to hold back.

I hope I never do.

[glasstree]

Forests are always good. You don't have to deal with idiots interrupting you when you're there. At least not often.

Hmm. Interesting. I am only strong with a rapier. Physically, I am not strong, but not weak. It's the curse of being born a woman...

Why? Is it... wrong to wish to smile? I hadn't smiled for three years up until about a month ago... and that was only because the person I cared for was dying. And he wanted to see me smile. He wanted me to be happy... I think that gave me clarity.

I figure I am here for a reason. And I like to think... it's to begin anew...

[abject_vision]

Of course...If anyone ever interrupted my I wouldn't hesitate to cut them down.

I prefer the sword, but I can fight with my bare hands, it's necessary...

Why is it wrong to wish to smile? Because I don't deserve it, and no one who would cry for me...there is no reason to change.

[glasstree]

I prefer to glare. It stops people cold and I don't have to dirty my hands with those who are unworthy.

I prefer rapier. I'm a fencer, not a swordswoman. Though I am decent with one. I know martial arts, but I'm still not strong physically... which is how I got... how...

...I ...know how you feel. I have no one. I had that one friend and... before he died and even while he lived he was very cruel to me. He did things to hurt me, make me want to die... He belittled me and made me feel weak... And then... He died. I don't have a family. No one would cry for me either. As weak as it makes me seem... I cry for myself sometimes. I mourn what could have been...

[abject_vision]

It matters not to me, weather or not people are worthy...though, I'll spare them if they run fast enough.

I've always fought with swords...it's a common weapon on our planet.

I would never allow myself to feel sorry for myself, because I am the reason the ones I love are dead.

[glasstree]

I don't want to waste my time on some people.

Rapiers are not very common, nor is fighting for survival. Compared to where I am from, and from what Claude-san has told me, where you are from is a bit more... well, primitive than where I am from.

I am... sorry to hear that. But apologising does nothing. Forgiveness is what changes things...

[abject_vision]

Ah...

Yes, Claude would be right...

And I can never be forgiven......

[glasstree]

I'm sure you can understand at least a fraction of what I mean...

But not in a bad sense, of course.

How do you know? If someone you cared deeply for died... do you not think that they would greatly desire you to live and to be happy... Not even for yourself, but for them. To experience what they could not... If you don't, then their deaths were in vain...

[abject_vision]

Of course.

No...he seemed to like it well enough when he was there...

Their deaths could not be in vain, because they did not die protecting me, It was mearly chance that I did not die as well...their death rests on my shoulders.

[glasstree]

Our society is not much different. We are just.... more indulgent. It's not always a good thing when lust, sex, and greed prevail above all else... And of course, technology.

That is wrong. After all, as you said, it was only a chance that you did not perish as well.

[abject_vision]

True....

.....It makes no differnce...

[glasstree]

It's rather.... sad, actually.

You are full of contradictions.... quite an enigma.

But I bet you'd be far more cute if you'd smile.

[abject_vision]

...No world is compleatly good...I suppose...

Yes, well, change can do that...[private to Juri]There are some people I care about...even If I don't matter to them...[/private to Juri]

...-gets that alot-